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<description>my special little weed in my special little garden</description>
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<title>00007: streaking</title>
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<title>00006: weeds abound</title>
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<author>dozens sin leche</author>
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<p>Happy Weednesday, Constant Gardners!</p>
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<p>The soundtrack to this entry is <em>Easy Come Easy Go</em> by the Great Lake Swimmers:</p>
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<p><a href="https://invidiou.site/watch?v=3SlnLhjGzVw" class="uri">https://invidiou.site/watch?v=3SlnLhjGzVw</a></p>
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<p>I started out intending to jot down a daily weed every morning, but have already long since not been able to accomplish that. That’s okay. I’ll start again today. Every time you start something anew, that is the beginning of a new streak that is so far unbroken! So with this entry, I have a perfect, unbroken streak of daily weed updates, consisting of one entire day!</p>
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<p>I don’t take streaks too seriously. This week I lost my 414 day duolingo streak. This is the second time I’ve surpassed 365 days, gotten to about 400, and then lost focus long enough to let the streak lapse. No biggie. I could restore it by paying $14 dollar for another pro subscription, but honestly I don’t care that much, and I’ll tell you why. It’s the same reason I said above: streaks don’t matter much to me. Guess what? I started over again and now I have a a brand new three day streak. It is small and cute and I am proud of it!</p>
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<p>Easy come, easy go.</p>
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<p>I think the big picture thing for me is that the streak is not the accomplishment. It’s kind of an indicator, or a sort of map, or a symbol. But it’s the <em>work</em> that is the real thing. So what what I’m starting my language streak again at zero? I know that I still have ~800 days of studying.</p>
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<p>You’re not entitled to the outcome, but only to the work there is to do.</p>
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<title>00017: easy open press and seal fucker</title>
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<author>dozens sin leche</author>
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<p>sometimes you get foodstuff and other stuff that comes in convenient plastic little pouches, and it has an easy-tear open with a little slit pre-started for you so you can just rip it open real easy, and it also has a nifty little self-closing press-and-seal kind of thing so that you can seal it up all nice and tight after you open it, but sometimes if you’re not careful, and even sometimes when you are careful, when you rip that fucker open it’s possible to accidentally rip out half of the press-and-seal mechanism, or even the whole damn thing.</p>
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<p>this actually happens far too often if you ask me.</p>
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<p>Yesterday was a big day in the weediverse! It went from being a beautiful garden with ostensibly a single weed (this one), to being a garden with several others!</p>
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<p>So, a warm welcome to ~acdw and ~lucidiot, two of my very favorite tildizens. Both tildepals veterans, casamaniacs and basement flyers, bikeshedders and absurd podcasters, javapool explorers, ircsplorers, champions of tildes and the smol internet, and all around good humans.</p>
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<p>Welcome to the weediverse. Enjoy the sunshine and the rich, loamy earth.</p>
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<author>dozens sin leche</author>
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<p>sometimes you get foodstuff and other stuff that comes in convenient plastic little pouches, and it has an easy-tear open with a little slit pre-started for you so you can just rip it open real easy, and it also has a nifty little self-closing press-and-seal kind of thing so that you can seal it up all nice and tight after you open it, but sometimes if you’re not careful, and even sometimes when you are careful, when you rip that fucker open it’s possible to accidentally rip out half of the press-and-seal mechanism, or even the whole damn thing.</p>
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<p>this actually happens far too often if you ask me.</p>
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<title>00006: weeds abound</title>
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<title>00007: streaking</title>
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<p>Yesterday was a big day in the weediverse! It went from being a beautiful garden with ostensibly a single weed (this one), to being a garden with several others!</p>
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<p>So, a warm welcome to ~acdw and ~lucidiot, two of my very favorite tildizens. Both tildepals veterans, casamaniacs and basement flyers, bikeshedders and absurd podcasters, javapool explorers, ircsplorers, champions of tildes and the smol internet, and all around good humans.</p>
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<p>Welcome to the weediverse. Enjoy the sunshine and the rich, loamy earth.</p>
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<p>Happy Weednesday, Constant Gardners!</p>
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<p>The soundtrack to this entry is <em>Easy Come Easy Go</em> by the Great Lake Swimmers:</p>
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<p><a href="https://invidiou.site/watch?v=3SlnLhjGzVw" class="uri">https://invidiou.site/watch?v=3SlnLhjGzVw</a></p>
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<p>I started out intending to jot down a daily weed every morning, but have already long since not been able to accomplish that. That’s okay. I’ll start again today. Every time you start something anew, that is the beginning of a new streak that is so far unbroken! So with this entry, I have a perfect, unbroken streak of daily weed updates, consisting of one entire day!</p>
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<p>I don’t take streaks too seriously. This week I lost my 414 day duolingo streak. This is the second time I’ve surpassed 365 days, gotten to about 400, and then lost focus long enough to let the streak lapse. No biggie. I could restore it by paying $14 dollar for another pro subscription, but honestly I don’t care that much, and I’ll tell you why. It’s the same reason I said above: streaks don’t matter much to me. Guess what? I started over again and now I have a a brand new three day streak. It is small and cute and I am proud of it!</p>
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<p>Easy come, easy go.</p>
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<p>I think the big picture thing for me is that the streak is not the accomplishment. It’s kind of an indicator, or a sort of map, or a symbol. But it’s the <em>work</em> that is the real thing. So what what I’m starting my language streak again at zero? I know that I still have ~800 days of studying.</p>
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<p>You’re not entitled to the outcome, but only to the work there is to do.</p>
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<title>00021: vacation</title>
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<author>dozens sin leche</author>
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<p>I’m going on a small vacation this weekend, first one in ~20 months, and my brain is doing strange things about it. I keep over planning for it: i have 2 novels I want to read and 2 - 3 side projects I’d like to make progress on, and maybe also make some headway on some reasearch I’m doing.</p>
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<p>But it’s a two night trip. Like. I might not even bring a computer.</p>
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<p>I think what this says to me is that I need an actual sabatical. Take two weeks off to stay home and just work on my bullshit.</p>
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<p>My employer offers unlimited PTO which I know is a shit sandwich wrapped up in pretty paper for employees. I have no reservations with taking their offering at face value and saying, Why thank you very much I will extremely take you up on that, thank you very much for the unlimited paid time off, assholes.</p>
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<p>I’m actually one hundred percent planning on taking 2 - 3 weeks off after this current project wraps up at the end of the month to mentally and physically recover. This project has been very demanding and I’m starting to crack a little.</p>
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<p>Anyway, kind of nervous / kind of excited about this weekend. I plan to enjoy the hottub and enjoy my friends and maybe do a little reading and a little writing? I’ll bring a laptop, who am I kidding. I don’t remember if there’s actually internet at the cabin though..</p>
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<title>00021: vacation</title>
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<p>I’m going on a small vacation this weekend, first one in ~20 months, and my brain is doing strange things about it. I keep over planning for it: i have 2 novels I want to read and 2 - 3 side projects I’d like to make progress on, and maybe also make some headway on some reasearch I’m doing.</p>
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<p>But it’s a two night trip. Like. I might not even bring a computer.</p>
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<p>I think what this says to me is that I need an actual sabatical. Take two weeks off to stay home and just work on my bullshit.</p>
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<p>My employer offers unlimited PTO which I know is a shit sandwich wrapped up in pretty paper for employees. I have no reservations with taking their offering at face value and saying, Why thank you very much I will extremely take you up on that, thank you very much for the unlimited paid time off, assholes.</p>
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<p>I’m actually one hundred percent planning on taking 2 - 3 weeks off after this current project wraps up at the end of the month to mentally and physically recover. This project has been very demanding and I’m starting to crack a little.</p>
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<p>Anyway, kind of nervous / kind of excited about this weekend. I plan to enjoy the hottub and enjoy my friends and maybe do a little reading and a little writing? I’ll bring a laptop, who am I kidding. I don’t remember if there’s actually internet at the cabin though..</p>
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<title>00010: vaccine</title>
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<p>got my first pfizer vaccine yesterday.</p>
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<p>It was a pretty positive experience overall. Efficient. Clean, plenty of room. Not too crowded.</p>
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<p>I expected to feel more of a relief than I do, but I still feel kind of numb about it, and honestly a little stressed out by it, because I don’t feel in myself any relief, or the permission to start doing more “before times” things. I’m not going to start going to grocery stores again, for example. And I’m not going to go out in public without a mask on. Even if there’s a 90% chance that I can’t get it myself, I’m pretty sure there’s still a chance that I could carry it and give it to somebody else. Sooo</p>
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<p>We have a brunch appoitment at a favorite restaurant of ours in a couple weeks. About a month. That’ll be the test I guess. I’m kind of dreading it, because I’m afraid I’m going to feel too conspicuous and weird to enjoy it. We’re going with another couple, who I guess are our “vaccine pod”. They’re getting their 1st jabs this week too.</p>
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<p>I’m still scared of carrying and exposing other people. I’m still scared of the 10% chance I have of getting it anyway. I’m still scared of varients that may be resistant to the antibodies in the vaccine. I’m still scared of being out and around people in a cavalier that…</p>
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<p>I don’t know, I have a fear of starting to act like everything is okay when everything is definitely not okay yet. And I don’t want to role model or demonstate feeling like things are okay. I’ve seen too many people not giving a fuck this whole time. And I’m afraid that if they see vaxxers starting to cavort around carefree, they may feel encouraged and validated in their not giving a fuck. “See? Things are back to normal. Hoax. I’m not getting a 5G chip.” It’s still not normal, and I don’t want to act like it is.</p>
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<p>I don’t feel more comforted by getting a vaccine than I do by staying indoors and away from people. It just feels to me like another layer of protection: I stay away from people, I wear a mask, and I have a vaccine now. I’m probably okay until everyone’s had it, or everyone’s been vaccinated, and we get herd immunity.</p>
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<p>So I got my first vaccine yesterday. Came home and ate a whole pint of chocolate truffle ice cream in celebration/out of frustration.</p>
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<title>00014: Reply to acdw (Re: my dumb ass)</title>
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<p>Reply to acdw (Re: my dumb ass)</p>
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<p>As a former public library employee myself, I gotta assume that you’re totally fine. Most library people I know are both outrageously passionate about the work that they do, and also incredibly burnt out.</p>
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<p>I think that there is a very small number of diehard “I will library until the day that I day. Preferably at the library” people, but that the majority of library people put in a few years of hard work and then move on to something else. In my experience at least, most people expect that.</p>
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<p>In fact, of my original cohort of library people, I think exactly 3 of us are still doing library work now five years later.</p>
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<p>They/we are now doing:</p>
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<p>(I quit the library to become a web developer, and several of us followed suit. I am the Pied Piper of PHP. jk, I don’t write PHP lol. I am the Jaunty Juggler of JavaScript.)</p>
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<p>Anyway. I don’t mean to diminish your feelings. I just mean to say tha if your boss is rational, and if turnover in your library is like it is in my library, then you’re probably Just Fine. They may be thinking, aw shuks, that sucks, I really like acdw and I’ll be sad to see them go. (Because who wouldn’t think that?) But I doubt they’re feeling any ill will toward you whatsoever.</p>
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<p>BUT WHAT DO I KNOW I’M JUST A DOZENS WHO LIVES IN THE INTERNET</p>
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<p>so right on the heels of my previous post about gender, I was reminded that I’m speaking to a cohort of young coders at a bootcamp this Friday. (A Learn To Code bootcamp, obviously. Not like, a military bootcamp.) This is something I’ve done before thanks to a friendly acquaintanceship that I have with a local developer/educator/evangelist. Anyway, the guy scheduling the thing reached out to me and gave the run down and the agenda, and asked me for my pronouns and my website.</p>
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<p>So I gave my github link and told him “he/they”. (Which I still continue to mistype initially as “hey” everytime. Which I guess is also an approapriate way to get my attention: “HEY! YOU!”)</p>
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<p>This marks the first time that I have strayed from exclusively masculine pronouns in a somewhat professional setting. Feels significant.</p>
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<p>I have zero expectations of being asked about it, but the possibility, no matter how small, has had me thinking about how I would discuss my pronouns if asked. (I seriously don’t think anybody would ask: it would be off topic for a tech talk, and also really personal.)</p>
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<p>The best I can think of so far is something like this:</p>
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<p>“I really love ‘they’ as a pronoun. In fact I think it’s the second best gender neutral pronoun in the English language. [Speaker notes: If they ask, the #1 best gender neutral pronoun is ”y’all”.] I like using it to refer to people when that’s appropriate, and I like having it used to refer to me. It works so well in so many situations. And I think that promoting and normalizing its use among my peer group of cis hetero men is an important step in breaking down gender binarism.”</p>
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<p>I think that’s okay. I think that gets the point across of what I’m trying to do and how I feel, without getting into personal details about my own identity. Which is still some flavor of “cis hetero man, but softer.. also, fuck the patriarchy!”</p>
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<p>So that talk happens on Friday. Like I said, I won’t get asked about it. I’ll get asked about my background and my job seeking experience and what life as a developer is like. But I’ll report back and share how it went.</p>
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<p>In other news, my standing desk should arrive today. I’ve done without for almost a year now and I can feel the effects in my body of not being able to move around into different configurations during the day. Looking forward to having the ability to switch back and forth again. I share this about my desk both because I’m genuinely looking forward to it getting here, and also to let you know that this weed won’t be all about gender politics all the time.</p>
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<p>That’s all. Be good, do well.</p>
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<p>So Freenode imploded this week?</p>
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<li><p>Today-ish, <em>something</em> happened to break the camel’s back. Lee started lawyering up, nearly all the existing freenode staff quit, encouraged people to delete their freenode accounts, and migrate to libera.chat</p></li>
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<p>So I don’t know what to do about that. I don’t know if this is a real thing or whether this is just noisy internet drama. Or, whether this is yawning at the apocalypse, a boring dystopia: the ever spreading, creeping corporate take over of all things. Lee owns freenode. Microsoft owns github and npm. Etc, etc. It sucks, but most people still use github and most people will probably still use Freenode TM.</p>
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<p>I don’t have any plans to leave freenode at this time. I lurk in a very small number of very small communities, and don’t rely on it for the success of my software project. So I’m obviously not part of the community that has a personal stake in how this unfolds.</p>
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<p>To be honest, the vast and overwhelming majority of my irc usage is on two or three tiny non-freenode servers. What’s that you say? Yes, I suppose you’re right. I’m using irc as a decentralized protocol, the way it was intended.</p>
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<p>The analogy of irc is to freenode as git is to github stands up pretty well. And if that’s the case, I think that the best thing that can happen is for people to abandon those platforms and embrace the decentralized nature of their tools. Run your own server. Be your own boss.</p>
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<p>Anyway, I’m mostly writing this all now to merely document a point in time. It might be funny to come back here in a year and read this after freenode has adopted sponsored channels, paid subscriptions, featured content, advertising, etc.</p>
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<p>That one admin posted a chat log where Lee’s associate tried to bribe them with donations to the Alpine project, so I have no problem imagining that will happen.</p>
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<p>Welcome to the corporate hellscape that is the internet. I shall retreat further and further into my tildespaces, friend holes, gemini capsules, gopher holes, and rss weeds.</p>
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<li><a href="https://gist.github.com/joepie91/df80d8d36cd9d1bde46ba018af497409" class="uri">https://gist.github.com/joepie91/df80d8d36cd9d1bde46ba018af497409</a></li>
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||||
<li><a href="https://www.kline.sh/" class="uri">https://www.kline.sh/</a></li>
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<li><a href="https://libera.chat/" class="uri">https://libera.chat/</a></li>
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<li><a href="https://christine.website/blog/final-chapter-2021-05-20" class="uri">https://christine.website/blog/final-chapter-2021-05-20</a></li>
|
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<li><a href="https://www.devever.net/~hl/freenode_abuse" class="uri">https://www.devever.net/~hl/freenode_abuse</a></li>
|
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<li id="fn1" role="doc-endnote"><p>This is always a lie. I have been at two companies so far that have been bought by larger companies, and both times they promised to “not make any changes.” (Even it was caveated by “…at least for the first year”.) This was followed in one instance by the parent company later completely dissolving the brand and merging the company with another. Which I would say is a pretty big change! I am not a business person. But in my experience and in my imagination, it is exceedingly rare for somebody to spend enough money to purchase a company, product, or other IP and then actually take no operational control over it. You buy the thing to generate revenue from it.<a href="#fnref1" class="footnote-back" role="doc-backlink">↩︎</a></p></li>
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<h1 id="bikesheds-conspiracy-theories-and-systemic-racism">Bikesheds, conspiracy theories, and systemic racism</h1>
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<p>A comment on “GitHub, f*ck your name change” by MooseyAnon</p>
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<p>src: <a href="https://mooseyanon.medium.com/github-f-ck-your-name-change-de599033bbbe" class="uri">https://mooseyanon.medium.com/github-f-ck-your-name-change-de599033bbbe</a></p>
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<p>First of all, I condemn racism and slavery and violence in the strongest, most absolute terms.</p>
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<p>Now, I was on this anti-master-branch bandwagon. I continue to think that renaming git’s default branch from master is a simple, easy, and worthwhile change to make. It doesn’t <em>accomplish</em> anything, not anything significant or meaningful, but it’s a gesture and an acknowledgment and a promise.</p>
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||||
<p>Yes it would be more better if we as developers could get GitHub to stop supporting ICE. Or if we could stop selling facial recognition software to racist law enforcement agencies.</p>
|
||||
<p>But we as individuals, and even as small or not so small groups of individuals, can do little to cause swift, meaningful change because capitalism and corporations, and the government that protects capitalism and corporations, will always protect their own interests over those of humans, and over making true reparations for those who are struggling to recover from government sanctioned slavery and genocide.</p>
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<p>That is, changing a git branch name is <em>easy</em>. Correcting systemic, government sanctioned racism and violence is <em>hard</em>.</p>
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||||
<p>Racism in America is hopelessly pervasive and complex. It’s overwhelming to think about actually rooting it out of our institutions and society. But it’s easy to point to git’s master branch and say, this! I can fix this!</p>
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<p>Yes, it’s probably performative. No, it probably doesn’t actually accomplish much. Beside maybe expose those who would defend racist vocabulary a little too loudly. No, most black americans probably didn’t ask for it, nor do they care.</p>
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<p>It’s somewhat adjacent to the phenomenon of bikeshedding. Given an immense, complex project like ending racism, or designing a building complex, the scope and breadth of the problem is so vast that most people can’t have an opinion on the best way to accomplish the end goal taken at a whole. But give them something small and easy to reason about, say a small bike shed, and they’ll argue all day long about what color it should be, or if vertical racks are more efficient than horizontal ones.</p>
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<p>No one person can ever cancel racism. But one person can change their default git branch and feel like they’re participating in something.</p>
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<p>Bikeshedding is counterproductive because it wastes time arguing and decision making. Renaming your git branch is counterproductive because it similarly distracts from the <em>actual</em> problem. And it offers a false sense of accomplishment. You didn’t <em>accomplish</em> anything by renaming that git branch. But it forces the conversation: for a while though, the tech community was buzzing with this topic. But was that conversation helpful? I wonder anybody from the apologist camp or the devil’s advocate camp, those defending the use of the word ‘master’, I wonder if any of them were at any point convinced that use of that word actually is problematic. I find it easier to believe that they all grumbled and complained about it, and now that it’s over, they just shrug and go back to work and if they think about it at all, they think, “Well that was weird and unnecessary,” and remain unchanged in any way.</p>
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<p>What did we win here?</p>
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<p>I think it’s also in the neighborhood of conspiracy theory. People look at the world and see that shit’s fucked up and getting worse. It is a sign of weakness, but very comforting, to choose to believe that one single party or group is responsible for all the bad stuff in the world. To say nothing of the feeling of superiority if you believe you’re in the know and others don’t get it. Comfort and superiority are great feelings, so I see why people fall into those traps. But it’s wrong to think that one group of people is in charge of the world government and that they are responsible for all your woes.</p>
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<p>It all stems, remember, from looking at a hopelessly complex system, and assuming that there is a single, simple solution. The git branch saga falls somewhere on this continuum: I can’t understand complexity so I will form unreasonably strong opinions about bike sheds. I can’t understand complexity, so I will concoct a false belief/scapegoat for my troubles. I can’t understand complexity, so I will rename my git branch.</p>
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<p>They are all various amounts of avoidance.</p>
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<p>But at least git branch renaming is to some degree productive avoidance. No it didn’t stop racism. But it has caused us to take a look at how deeply rooted racism is in our language and culture.</p>
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<p>One million points to the first university who stops giving out Masters degrees and starts giving out Scholars degrees. More lip service, sure. But that’d be cool as hell.</p>
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<p>I write this rant mostly to myself. To remind myself that I renamed my git branch, and that is barely even a beginning. I didn’t accomplish anything, I barely even started anything. There is much work to be done.</p>
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<p>So here’s a funny thing that happened yesterday.</p>
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<p>My birthday is coming up, and Jo said that they’re not doing anything big for it, they’re just getting me a couple of little things, which is totally in line with our way of doing things: don’t make a big deal. (Even though this is kind of a big birthday.)</p>
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<p>So we’re at Costco, walking around the aisles and hallways, and we’re in the electronics section, and they point at master chief and go, ‘Hey, do you want an xbox?’. Now, admittedly, this is a kind of game we play. ‘Hey, do you want that refrigerator?’ ‘Hey, should we get this ridiculously large couch?’</p>
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<p>I say, ‘Ew, no! I want a nintendo!’ and I grab one of the little cardboard thingies that is like, ‘take this to the front to get your item’ and throw it in the cart. And they’re like, ‘Umm, are you sure?’</p>
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<p>I say, ‘Yes, I’m sure! I’ve wanted one for literal years, and it’s my birthday. I’m getting me a nintendo and I’m going to play some motherfucking Zelda.’ And then I waffle back and forth a little bit because I really suck at just buying things for myself. (Exhibit A: I’ve wanted a nintendo for years, but have never just bought one.) I take the thing out of the cart and put it back on the shelf. Then I pick it back up and put it in the cart.</p>
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<p>‘Fuck it, I’m getting this,’ I say. ‘This can be from you if you want. You can get this for me for my birthday.’</p>
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<p>We continue to shop around and now and then they’re like, ‘What all is in this bundle?’ (It’s a bundle with a subscription, a carrying case, etc.) ‘Does it come with any games?’ Etc.</p>
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<p>Eventually they stop me and say, ‘Listen, I need to tell you something. We can get this if you want to. But I already got you a nintendo when I was at Target the other day. It’s in the garage at home.’</p>
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<p>I found this delightful, and started laughing. ‘Wow, you really tempted fate by asking me if I wanted a video game console then!’</p>
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<p>‘I was just here last week looking for them and they didn’t have them!’</p>
|
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<p>So we compared the packages, and went with the bundle from costco because it comes with a 12 month membership, which one needs in order to play old NES and SNES games, which is 50% what I want out of the system in the first place.</p>
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<p>We got home, and I played some motherfucking Zelda last night. Link to the Past. One of the greatest games ever made.</p>
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<p>Going to Target later today to return the other one.</p>
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<p>Happy birthday to me!</p>
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<author>dozens sin leche</author>
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<p>when this weed began it was about gender politics and now it is about office furnature. This is the mercurial nature of this weed. I hope you are okay with that because that is what I’m dishing out.</p>
|
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<p>I put that busted up desk out on the front porch and UPS came and picked it up the next day.</p>
|
||||
<p>Then yesterday they dropped off the replacement!</p>
|
||||
<p>I cracked it open and gave it a good looking-at to make sure it wasn’t all cracked up, and it was not! It was a solid, honest to goodness, intact and whole desk.</p>
|
||||
<p>So I pulled all the pieces out, and it did that thing where it had all of the small pieces sorted into individual, labeled little baggies, which I love. So well organized.</p>
|
||||
<p>Very simple assembly: put the legs and driving rod/motor assembly part on the underside of the desk. Put the feet on the legs. Plug it in! Blamo!!</p>
|
||||
<p>Now I have a stand up/sit down desk in my office. It has a little wireless charging stand on the corner, which is nice. It charges my phone if I take it out of the case. I have a little bit more space now, so I can have my keyboard on my desk, and also have a notebook open, which is cool.</p>
|
||||
<p>I’ve been standing up a lot, which already feels great in my body. Can’t believe I’ve just been sitting for a year. I’m settling into a groove where I put on some music to jam out to, and I can kind of shuffle and move at my desk while working.</p>
|
||||
<p>Yes, I dance at my desk while working. It’s awesome and you should try it. Just put on some good drums & guitar. Yesterday I listened to Battles and Giraffes? Giraffes! and it was great.</p>
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<h2 id="talksgiving">talksgiving</h2>
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<p>Okay also I gave that talk last Friday at the coding bootcamp standup. It was cute and quick and fun.</p>
|
||||
<p>They apparently start every morning listening to some inspiring music together, and that day the instructor played Basketcase by Green Day, and as we all know Dookie Green Day is best Green Day and I got really amped up over it.</p>
|
||||
<p>I told them a little bit about my background and my job search/interview experience after bootcamp, because I figured that’s the next thing they’re going to be going through themselves, and they will find those experiences of mine most relatable and most useful.</p>
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<p>I think they did feel that way. I got a lot of questions about agency life since that’s been then entirety of my career. And like, what they should put on their resumes. What should they specialize in. (Nothing now, you are infants. Keep learning basics.) etc etc.</p>
|
||||
<p>I preached about Grazer style Curiosity Conversations, and one kiddo reached out to me to schedule one immediately after. Good for him. We chatted this week, and I hooked him up with another meeting with a friend of mine who is starting up a internship at his company. Hope that goes well for them!</p>
|
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<p>My feelings about this are: I should do more of that kind of thing both to meet people and also to help new developers get started in their career. People did it for me, and I want to pay it back, and also it just feels really good to me to connect people and help create relationships.</p>
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<p>OKAY THE END PEACE OUT</p>
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<p>So Freenode imploded this week?</p>
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<p>Here’s what happened to the best of my knowledge, off the top of my head.</p>
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<li><p>Back in 2013-ish christel sold freenode outright to a private group with the majority of the ownership going to Andrew Lee. Nobody at freenode knew this.</p></li>
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<li><p>Around 2017, suddenly everybody knew this. Lee said he wasn’t going to change freenode at all<a href="#fn1" class="footnote-ref" id="fnref1" role="doc-noteref"><sup>1</sup></a>, but then started putting corporate logos on the site advertising his businesses.</p></li>
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<li><p>Today-ish, <em>something</em> happened to break the camel’s back. Lee started lawyering up, nearly all the existing freenode staff quit, encouraged people to delete their freenode accounts, and migrate to libera.chat</p></li>
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<p>So I don’t know what to do about that. I don’t know if this is a real thing or whether this is just noisy internet drama. Or, whether this is yawning at the apocalypse, a boring dystopia: the ever spreading, creeping corporate take over of all things. Lee owns freenode. Microsoft owns github and npm. Etc, etc. It sucks, but most people still use github and most people will probably still use Freenode TM.</p>
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<p>Me personally, I made a libera.chat account, mostly to protect my account name, and joined the tildeverse channel.</p>
|
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<p>I don’t have any plans to leave freenode at this time. I lurk in a very small number of very small communities, and don’t rely on it for the success of my software project. So I’m obviously not part of the community that has a personal stake in how this unfolds.</p>
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<p>To be honest, the vast and overwhelming majority of my irc usage is on two or three tiny non-freenode servers. What’s that you say? Yes, I suppose you’re right. I’m using irc as a decentralized protocol, the way it was intended.</p>
|
||||
<p>The analogy of irc is to freenode as git is to github stands up pretty well. And if that’s the case, I think that the best thing that can happen is for people to abandon those platforms and embrace the decentralized nature of their tools. Run your own server. Be your own boss.</p>
|
||||
<p>Anyway, I’m mostly writing this all now to merely document a point in time. It might be funny to come back here in a year and read this after freenode has adopted sponsored channels, paid subscriptions, featured content, advertising, etc.</p>
|
||||
<p>That one admin posted a chat log where Lee’s associate tried to bribe them with donations to the Alpine project, so I have no problem imagining that will happen.</p>
|
||||
<p>Welcome to the corporate hellscape that is the internet. I shall retreat further and further into my tildespaces, friend holes, gemini capsules, gopher holes, and rss weeds.</p>
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<li><a href="https://gist.github.com/joepie91/df80d8d36cd9d1bde46ba018af497409" class="uri">https://gist.github.com/joepie91/df80d8d36cd9d1bde46ba018af497409</a></li>
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<li><a href="https://www.kline.sh/" class="uri">https://www.kline.sh/</a></li>
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<li><a href="https://libera.chat/" class="uri">https://libera.chat/</a></li>
|
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<li><a href="https://christine.website/blog/final-chapter-2021-05-20" class="uri">https://christine.website/blog/final-chapter-2021-05-20</a></li>
|
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<li><a href="https://www.devever.net/~hl/freenode_abuse" class="uri">https://www.devever.net/~hl/freenode_abuse</a></li>
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<li id="fn1" role="doc-endnote"><p>This is always a lie. I have been at two companies so far that have been bought by larger companies, and both times they promised to “not make any changes.” (Even it was caveated by “…at least for the first year”.) This was followed in one instance by the parent company later completely dissolving the brand and merging the company with another. Which I would say is a pretty big change! I am not a business person. But in my experience and in my imagination, it is exceedingly rare for somebody to spend enough money to purchase a company, product, or other IP and then actually take no operational control over it. You buy the thing to generate revenue from it.<a href="#fnref1" class="footnote-back" role="doc-backlink">↩︎</a></p></li>
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<h1 id="bikesheds-conspiracy-theories-and-systemic-racism">Bikesheds, conspiracy theories, and systemic racism</h1>
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<p>A comment on “GitHub, f*ck your name change” by MooseyAnon</p>
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<p>src: <a href="https://mooseyanon.medium.com/github-f-ck-your-name-change-de599033bbbe" class="uri">https://mooseyanon.medium.com/github-f-ck-your-name-change-de599033bbbe</a></p>
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<p>First of all, I condemn racism and slavery and violence in the strongest, most absolute terms.</p>
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<p>Now, I was on this anti-master-branch bandwagon. I continue to think that renaming git’s default branch from master is a simple, easy, and worthwhile change to make. It doesn’t <em>accomplish</em> anything, not anything significant or meaningful, but it’s a gesture and an acknowledgment and a promise.</p>
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<p>Yes it would be more better if we as developers could get GitHub to stop supporting ICE. Or if we could stop selling facial recognition software to racist law enforcement agencies.</p>
|
||||
<p>But we as individuals, and even as small or not so small groups of individuals, can do little to cause swift, meaningful change because capitalism and corporations, and the government that protects capitalism and corporations, will always protect their own interests over those of humans, and over making true reparations for those who are struggling to recover from government sanctioned slavery and genocide.</p>
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<p>That is, changing a git branch name is <em>easy</em>. Correcting systemic, government sanctioned racism and violence is <em>hard</em>.</p>
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<p>Racism in America is hopelessly pervasive and complex. It’s overwhelming to think about actually rooting it out of our institutions and society. But it’s easy to point to git’s master branch and say, this! I can fix this!</p>
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<p>Yes, it’s probably performative. No, it probably doesn’t actually accomplish much. Beside maybe expose those who would defend racist vocabulary a little too loudly. No, most black americans probably didn’t ask for it, nor do they care.</p>
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<p>It’s somewhat adjacent to the phenomenon of bikeshedding. Given an immense, complex project like ending racism, or designing a building complex, the scope and breadth of the problem is so vast that most people can’t have an opinion on the best way to accomplish the end goal taken at a whole. But give them something small and easy to reason about, say a small bike shed, and they’ll argue all day long about what color it should be, or if vertical racks are more efficient than horizontal ones.</p>
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<p>No one person can ever cancel racism. But one person can change their default git branch and feel like they’re participating in something.</p>
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<p>Bikeshedding is counterproductive because it wastes time arguing and decision making. Renaming your git branch is counterproductive because it similarly distracts from the <em>actual</em> problem. And it offers a false sense of accomplishment. You didn’t <em>accomplish</em> anything by renaming that git branch. But it forces the conversation: for a while though, the tech community was buzzing with this topic. But was that conversation helpful? I wonder anybody from the apologist camp or the devil’s advocate camp, those defending the use of the word ‘master’, I wonder if any of them were at any point convinced that use of that word actually is problematic. I find it easier to believe that they all grumbled and complained about it, and now that it’s over, they just shrug and go back to work and if they think about it at all, they think, “Well that was weird and unnecessary,” and remain unchanged in any way.</p>
|
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<p>What did we win here?</p>
|
||||
<p>I think it’s also in the neighborhood of conspiracy theory. People look at the world and see that shit’s fucked up and getting worse. It is a sign of weakness, but very comforting, to choose to believe that one single party or group is responsible for all the bad stuff in the world. To say nothing of the feeling of superiority if you believe you’re in the know and others don’t get it. Comfort and superiority are great feelings, so I see why people fall into those traps. But it’s wrong to think that one group of people is in charge of the world government and that they are responsible for all your woes.</p>
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<p>It all stems, remember, from looking at a hopelessly complex system, and assuming that there is a single, simple solution. The git branch saga falls somewhere on this continuum: I can’t understand complexity so I will form unreasonably strong opinions about bike sheds. I can’t understand complexity, so I will concoct a false belief/scapegoat for my troubles. I can’t understand complexity, so I will rename my git branch.</p>
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<p>They are all various amounts of avoidance.</p>
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<p>But at least git branch renaming is to some degree productive avoidance. No it didn’t stop racism. But it has caused us to take a look at how deeply rooted racism is in our language and culture.</p>
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<p>One million points to the first university who stops giving out Masters degrees and starts giving out Scholars degrees. More lip service, sure. But that’d be cool as hell.</p>
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<p>I write this rant mostly to myself. To remind myself that I renamed my git branch, and that is barely even a beginning. I didn’t accomplish anything, I barely even started anything. There is much work to be done.</p>
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<p>when this weed began it was about gender politics and now it is about office furnature. This is the mercurial nature of this weed. I hope you are okay with that because that is what I’m dishing out.</p>
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<p>I put that busted up desk out on the front porch and UPS came and picked it up the next day.</p>
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<p>Then yesterday they dropped off the replacement!</p>
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<p>I cracked it open and gave it a good looking-at to make sure it wasn’t all cracked up, and it was not! It was a solid, honest to goodness, intact and whole desk.</p>
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<p>So I pulled all the pieces out, and it did that thing where it had all of the small pieces sorted into individual, labeled little baggies, which I love. So well organized.</p>
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<p>Very simple assembly: put the legs and driving rod/motor assembly part on the underside of the desk. Put the feet on the legs. Plug it in! Blamo!!</p>
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<p>Now I have a stand up/sit down desk in my office. It has a little wireless charging stand on the corner, which is nice. It charges my phone if I take it out of the case. I have a little bit more space now, so I can have my keyboard on my desk, and also have a notebook open, which is cool.</p>
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<p>I’ve been standing up a lot, which already feels great in my body. Can’t believe I’ve just been sitting for a year. I’m settling into a groove where I put on some music to jam out to, and I can kind of shuffle and move at my desk while working.</p>
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<p>Yes, I dance at my desk while working. It’s awesome and you should try it. Just put on some good drums & guitar. Yesterday I listened to Battles and Giraffes? Giraffes! and it was great.</p>
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<h2 id="talksgiving">talksgiving</h2>
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<p>Okay also I gave that talk last Friday at the coding bootcamp standup. It was cute and quick and fun.</p>
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<p>They apparently start every morning listening to some inspiring music together, and that day the instructor played Basketcase by Green Day, and as we all know Dookie Green Day is best Green Day and I got really amped up over it.</p>
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<p>I told them a little bit about my background and my job search/interview experience after bootcamp, because I figured that’s the next thing they’re going to be going through themselves, and they will find those experiences of mine most relatable and most useful.</p>
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<p>I think they did feel that way. I got a lot of questions about agency life since that’s been then entirety of my career. And like, what they should put on their resumes. What should they specialize in. (Nothing now, you are infants. Keep learning basics.) etc etc.</p>
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<p>I preached about Grazer style Curiosity Conversations, and one kiddo reached out to me to schedule one immediately after. Good for him. We chatted this week, and I hooked him up with another meeting with a friend of mine who is starting up a internship at his company. Hope that goes well for them!</p>
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<p>My feelings about this are: I should do more of that kind of thing both to meet people and also to help new developers get started in their career. People did it for me, and I want to pay it back, and also it just feels really good to me to connect people and help create relationships.</p>
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<p>so right on the heels of my previous post about gender, I was reminded that I’m speaking to a cohort of young coders at a bootcamp this Friday. (A Learn To Code bootcamp, obviously. Not like, a military bootcamp.) This is something I’ve done before thanks to a friendly acquaintanceship that I have with a local developer/educator/evangelist. Anyway, the guy scheduling the thing reached out to me and gave the run down and the agenda, and asked me for my pronouns and my website.</p>
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<p>So I gave my github link and told him “he/they”. (Which I still continue to mistype initially as “hey” everytime. Which I guess is also an approapriate way to get my attention: “HEY! YOU!”)</p>
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<p>This marks the first time that I have strayed from exclusively masculine pronouns in a somewhat professional setting. Feels significant.</p>
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<p>I have zero expectations of being asked about it, but the possibility, no matter how small, has had me thinking about how I would discuss my pronouns if asked. (I seriously don’t think anybody would ask: it would be off topic for a tech talk, and also really personal.)</p>
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<p>The best I can think of so far is something like this:</p>
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<p>“I really love ‘they’ as a pronoun. In fact I think it’s the second best gender neutral pronoun in the English language. [Speaker notes: If they ask, the #1 best gender neutral pronoun is ”y’all”.] I like using it to refer to people when that’s appropriate, and I like having it used to refer to me. It works so well in so many situations. And I think that promoting and normalizing its use among my peer group of cis hetero men is an important step in breaking down gender binarism.”</p>
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<p>I think that’s okay. I think that gets the point across of what I’m trying to do and how I feel, without getting into personal details about my own identity. Which is still some flavor of “cis hetero man, but softer.. also, fuck the patriarchy!”</p>
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<p>So that talk happens on Friday. Like I said, I won’t get asked about it. I’ll get asked about my background and my job seeking experience and what life as a developer is like. But I’ll report back and share how it went.</p>
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<p>In other news, my standing desk should arrive today. I’ve done without for almost a year now and I can feel the effects in my body of not being able to move around into different configurations during the day. Looking forward to having the ability to switch back and forth again. I share this about my desk both because I’m genuinely looking forward to it getting here, and also to let you know that this weed won’t be all about gender politics all the time.</p>
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<p>That’s all. Be good, do well.</p>
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<p>got my first pfizer vaccine yesterday.</p>
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<p>It was a pretty positive experience overall. Efficient. Clean, plenty of room. Not too crowded.</p>
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<p>I expected to feel more of a relief than I do, but I still feel kind of numb about it, and honestly a little stressed out by it, because I don’t feel in myself any relief, or the permission to start doing more “before times” things. I’m not going to start going to grocery stores again, for example. And I’m not going to go out in public without a mask on. Even if there’s a 90% chance that I can’t get it myself, I’m pretty sure there’s still a chance that I could carry it and give it to somebody else. Sooo</p>
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<p>We have a brunch appoitment at a favorite restaurant of ours in a couple weeks. About a month. That’ll be the test I guess. I’m kind of dreading it, because I’m afraid I’m going to feel too conspicuous and weird to enjoy it. We’re going with another couple, who I guess are our “vaccine pod”. They’re getting their 1st jabs this week too.</p>
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<p>I’m still scared of carrying and exposing other people. I’m still scared of the 10% chance I have of getting it anyway. I’m still scared of varients that may be resistant to the antibodies in the vaccine. I’m still scared of being out and around people in a cavalier that…</p>
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<p>I don’t know, I have a fear of starting to act like everything is okay when everything is definitely not okay yet. And I don’t want to role model or demonstate feeling like things are okay. I’ve seen too many people not giving a fuck this whole time. And I’m afraid that if they see vaxxers starting to cavort around carefree, they may feel encouraged and validated in their not giving a fuck. “See? Things are back to normal. Hoax. I’m not getting a 5G chip.” It’s still not normal, and I don’t want to act like it is.</p>
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<p>I don’t feel more comforted by getting a vaccine than I do by staying indoors and away from people. It just feels to me like another layer of protection: I stay away from people, I wear a mask, and I have a vaccine now. I’m probably okay until everyone’s had it, or everyone’s been vaccinated, and we get herd immunity.</p>
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<p>So I got my first vaccine yesterday. Came home and ate a whole pint of chocolate truffle ice cream in celebration/out of frustration.</p>
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<p>I promised an update on my new desk so here it is, get ready.</p>
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<p>My desk arrived yesterday on my front porch in a big box. It took me and my partner both together to get it inside. But once it was inside I just dragged it into my office.</p>
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<p>I was going to wait till the end of the day to set it up because I was busy with work. But then I had some downtime at work, and figured the hell with it I’ll go ahead and set it up now and then I can play D&D tonight on my new desk.</p>
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<p>So I opened up the box and lifted up the top layer of styrofoam, and at first I didn’t understand what I was looking at. It looked like the glass tabletop had some kind of neat tiled, marbled pattern to it. And then I noticed the edges were kind of crumbly and thought that maybe the styrofoam had crumbled into pieces and was sticking to the edges of the table.</p>
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<p>Nope! The entire glass tabletop was shattered into shards and pebbles! I found out when I went to brush the pieces of styrofoam away and they turned out to be glass instead, and they stuck in my hand and fingers.</p>
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<p>I yelled out, more surprised than hurt, and shooed the dogs away because a few pieces had spilled out onto the floor.</p>
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<p>Luckily I hadn’t taken a single thing out of the box yet, so I just closed that bad boy up and taped it shut. I tilted it on an edge and wedged my skateboard under it and wheeled it outside and put it back on the porch.</p>
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<p>Got ahold of customer support. UPS will come pick it up today or tomorrow, and a new one is on the way.</p>
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<p>I decided to be bold and ask if they would overnight the new one to me, but my boldness was not rewarded. Should be here in a couple days.</p>
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<p>This has been an update on my new office desk.</p>
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<p>Thank you and good night.</p>
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<p>Reply to acdw (Re: my dumb ass)</p>
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<p>As a former public library employee myself, I gotta assume that you’re totally fine. Most library people I know are both outrageously passionate about the work that they do, and also incredibly burnt out.</p>
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<p>I think that there is a very small number of diehard “I will library until the day that I day. Preferably at the library” people, but that the majority of library people put in a few years of hard work and then move on to something else. In my experience at least, most people expect that.</p>
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<p>In fact, of my original cohort of library people, I think exactly 3 of us are still doing library work now five years later.</p>
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<p>They/we are now doing:</p>
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<p>(I quit the library to become a web developer, and several of us followed suit. I am the Pied Piper of PHP. jk, I don’t write PHP lol. I am the Jaunty Juggler of JavaScript.)</p>
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<p>Anyway. I don’t mean to diminish your feelings. I just mean to say tha if your boss is rational, and if turnover in your library is like it is in my library, then you’re probably Just Fine. They may be thinking, aw shuks, that sucks, I really like acdw and I’ll be sad to see them go. (Because who wouldn’t think that?) But I doubt they’re feeling any ill will toward you whatsoever.</p>
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<p>BUT WHAT DO I KNOW I’M JUST A DOZENS WHO LIVES IN THE INTERNET</p>
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<p>I promised an update on my new desk so here it is, get ready.</p>
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<p>My desk arrived yesterday on my front porch in a big box. It took me and my partner both together to get it inside. But once it was inside I just dragged it into my office.</p>
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<p>I was going to wait till the end of the day to set it up because I was busy with work. But then I had some downtime at work, and figured the hell with it I’ll go ahead and set it up now and then I can play D&D tonight on my new desk.</p>
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<p>So I opened up the box and lifted up the top layer of styrofoam, and at first I didn’t understand what I was looking at. It looked like the glass tabletop had some kind of neat tiled, marbled pattern to it. And then I noticed the edges were kind of crumbly and thought that maybe the styrofoam had crumbled into pieces and was sticking to the edges of the table.</p>
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<p>Nope! The entire glass tabletop was shattered into shards and pebbles! I found out when I went to brush the pieces of styrofoam away and they turned out to be glass instead, and they stuck in my hand and fingers.</p>
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<p>I yelled out, more surprised than hurt, and shooed the dogs away because a few pieces had spilled out onto the floor.</p>
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<p>Luckily I hadn’t taken a single thing out of the box yet, so I just closed that bad boy up and taped it shut. I tilted it on an edge and wedged my skateboard under it and wheeled it outside and put it back on the porch.</p>
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<p>Got ahold of customer support. UPS will come pick it up today or tomorrow, and a new one is on the way.</p>
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<p>I decided to be bold and ask if they would overnight the new one to me, but my boldness was not rewarded. Should be here in a couple days.</p>
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<p>This has been an update on my new office desk.</p>
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<p>Thank you and good night.</p>
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