From c115711b6a71975cdbf51c558be6eeb127114b65 Mon Sep 17 00:00:00 2001 From: Tony Chen Date: Mon, 14 Jun 2021 08:47:05 +0000 Subject: [PATCH] tidy up and post --- _config.yml | 12 ++++++------ _posts/2021-06-14-sunny.md | 39 ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ contact.md | 13 +++++++++++++ now.md | 19 ------------------- 4 files changed, 58 insertions(+), 25 deletions(-) create mode 100644 _posts/2021-06-14-sunny.md create mode 100644 contact.md delete mode 100644 now.md diff --git a/_config.yml b/_config.yml index b358791..b616286 100644 --- a/_config.yml +++ b/_config.yml @@ -5,8 +5,8 @@ permalink: pretty # relative_permalinks: true # Setup -title: What does ~rogbeer put here? -tagline: That which probably doesn't fit anywhere else on the Internet +title: ~rogbeer's corner +tagline: where ~rogbeer stashes some stuff url: http://tilde.town paginate: 1 baseurl: "/~rogbeer" @@ -20,9 +20,9 @@ sass: # About/contact author: - name: Tony Chen - url: https://phtan.github.io/ - email: phtan90@gmail.com + name: ~rogbeer, whoever he is + url: "" + email: "" # Custom vars version: 2.0.0 @@ -38,6 +38,6 @@ plugins: pages_list: Archive: '/archive' 'RSS Feed': '/atom.xml' - 'What ~rogbeer is focused on at this point in his life': '/now' + 'Contact': '/contact' "What's with the name, ~rogbeer?": '/rogbeer' 'What would people give, for a cassette tape?': '/swap' diff --git a/_posts/2021-06-14-sunny.md b/_posts/2021-06-14-sunny.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..9d7a456 --- /dev/null +++ b/_posts/2021-06-14-sunny.md @@ -0,0 +1,39 @@ +--- +layout: post +title: "Content warning: emotional blackmail" +--- + +Content warning: emotional blackmail. + +"If you don't do what I want you +to, I'll kill myself." + +My mother said that to me when I was ten years +old or younger. Yes, my mother. I didn't know what to do. I didn't even +think to call the police. My siblings - a younger brother and a younger +sister - were there as well. + +"Well? Do you want me to jump down from +nine storeys high, or not? Shall I do it now?" + +My brother and I refused +to give in. But my sister rushed to Mummy and said, sobbing: "I love +you, Mummy, please don't jump." + +Fast forward to my fifteen-year-old +self: I came in first in my cohort, in academic performance. + +At +twenty-three years old: I felt unwell (mentally or otherwise). My +university class-mates started avoiding me. + +Now, at thirty years old: +Looking back, it was hardly surprising that I suffered a break-down. I +had to attend to my wounds - emotional or otherwise - from my childhood. +All those years, I had been avoiding it, pretending everything was fine. +Now I feel much better, thanks to a Biblical God. And I wish - and +practise - kindness towards my mother, because that's what my god wants. + +If you're suffering similarly right now, I hope my message encourages +you. + diff --git a/contact.md b/contact.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..c2b0974 --- /dev/null +++ b/contact.md @@ -0,0 +1,13 @@ +--- +layout: page +title: Contact +--- + +you could: + +- send me internal mail, if you are using the shared computer at +[tilde.town](http://tilde.town). +- look for me at [Mastodon](http://im-in.space/@rogbeer). + +I log-on to the above two cyberspace-places irregularly, so please don't +expect fast replies. diff --git a/now.md b/now.md deleted file mode 100644 index 74fd0d8..0000000 --- a/now.md +++ /dev/null @@ -1,19 +0,0 @@ ---- -layout: page -title: what I'm up to now ---- - -I'm pursuing these, just to list a few (in no particular order): - -1. Waiting for the results of my submission, of -[seven photos](https://alls-futility.tumblr.com/post/614080452947591168/a-series-of-seven-photos-as-yet-untitled-the), -to [Singapore -International Photography Festival](http://sipf.sg). -2. Getting re-acquainted with the ground, as a way to have fun and delight. -I got a reminder about that, from Vaishali Iyer's [blog-post](https://thestillspace.org/2020/03/22/ode-to-the-ground/). -3. Determining if [a writers' group](https://www.meetup.com/Writers-Collective/) is helpful for me. -4. a pleasure for me: staying in touch with friends. This includes chatting over software like WhatsApp. -5. keeping my time free to do whatever I may become excited about. - -This has been a [Now-page](https://nownownow.com/about), written on 31st March -2020.