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<h1 class="post-title">Content warning: emotional blackmail</h1>
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<time datetime="2021-06-14T00:00:00+00:00" class="post-date">14 Jun 2021</time>
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<p>Content warning: emotional blackmail.</p>
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<p>“If you don’t do what I want you
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to, I’ll kill myself.”</p>
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<p>My mother said that to me when I was ten years
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old or younger. Yes, my mother. I didn’t know what to do. I didn’t even
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think to call the police. My siblings - a younger brother and a younger
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sister - were there as well.</p>
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<p>“Well? Do you want me to jump down from
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nine storeys high, or not? Shall I do it now?”</p>
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<p>My brother and I refused
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to give in. But my sister rushed to Mummy and said, sobbing: “I love
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you, Mummy, please don’t jump.”</p>
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<p>Fast forward to my fifteen-year-old
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self: I came in first in my cohort, in academic performance.</p>
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<p>At
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twenty-three years old: I felt unwell (mentally or otherwise). My
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university class-mates started avoiding me.</p>
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<p>Now, at thirty years old:
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Looking back, it was hardly surprising that I suffered a break-down. I
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had to attend to my wounds - emotional or otherwise - from my childhood.
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All those years, I had been avoiding it, pretending everything was fine.
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Now I feel much better, thanks to a Biblical God. And I wish - and
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practise - kindness towards my mother, because that’s what my god wants.</p>
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<p>If you’re suffering similarly right now, I hope my message encourages
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you.</p>
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2023-10-23 03:24:38 +00:00
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<a href="/~rogbeer/2023/10/23/cloudy/">
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letter to M, my friend who practises Zen Buddhism
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<small><time datetime="2023-10-23T00:00:00+00:00">23 Oct 2023</time></small>
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2023-10-23 03:24:38 +00:00
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<a href="/~rogbeer/2023/04/26/scorchingly-sunny/">
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letter to my brother-in-Christ, L.
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<small><time datetime="2023-04-26T00:00:00+00:00">26 Apr 2023</time></small>
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coffee-places with toilets attached
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<small><time datetime="2023-02-13T00:00:00+00:00">13 Feb 2023</time></small>
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© <a href="">~rogbeer, whoever he is</a>, <time datetime="2023-10-23T03:17:39+00:00">2023</time>. All rights reserved.
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