<!DOCTYPE html> <html lang="en"> <head> <meta charset="UTF-8"> <link href="http://gmpg.org/xfn/11" rel="profile"> <!-- Enable responsiveness on mobile devices--> <meta name="viewport" content="width=device-width, initial-scale=1.0"> <title> ~rogbeer's corner · where ~rogbeer stashes some stuff </title> <!-- CSS --> <link rel="stylesheet" href="/~rogbeer/styles.css"> <!-- Icons --> <link rel="apple-touch-icon-precomposed" sizes="144x144" href="/~rogbeer/public/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png"> <link rel="shortcut icon" href="/~rogbeer/public/favicon.ico"> <!-- RSS --> <link rel="alternate" type="application/atom+xml" title="~rogbeer's corner" href="/~rogbeer/atom.xml"> </head> <body> <div class="container content"> <header class="masthead"> <h3 class="masthead-title"> <a href="/~rogbeer/" title="Home">~rogbeer's corner</a> <small>where ~rogbeer stashes some stuff</small> </h3> <br /> <small>| <a href="/~rogbeer/archive">Archive </a> </small> <br /> <small>| <a href="/~rogbeer/atom.xml">RSS Feed </a> </small> <br /> <small>| <a href="/~rogbeer/contact">Contact </a> </small> <br /> <small>| <a href="/~rogbeer/around_town">What can I do around tilde.town? </a> </small> <br /> <small>| <a href="/~rogbeer/rogbeer">What's with the name, ~rogbeer? </a> </small> <br /> <small>| <a href="/~rogbeer/swap">What is the value of a cassette tape nowadays? </a> </small> <br /> </header> <main> <div class="posts"> <article class="post"> <h1 class="post-title"> <a href="/~rogbeer/2021/06/14/sunny/"> Content warning: emotional blackmail </a> </h1> <time datetime="2021-06-14T00:00:00+00:00" class="post-date">14 Jun 2021</time> <p>Content warning: emotional blackmail.</p> <p>“If you don’t do what I want you to, I’ll kill myself.”</p> <p>My mother said that to me when I was ten years old or younger. Yes, my mother. I didn’t know what to do. I didn’t even think to call the police. My siblings - a younger brother and a younger sister - were there as well.</p> <p>“Well? Do you want me to jump down from nine storeys high, or not? Shall I do it now?”</p> <p>My brother and I refused to give in. But my sister rushed to Mummy and said, sobbing: “I love you, Mummy, please don’t jump.”</p> <p>Fast forward to my fifteen-year-old self: I came in first in my cohort, in academic performance.</p> <p>At twenty-three years old: I felt unwell (mentally or otherwise). My university class-mates started avoiding me.</p> <p>Now, at thirty years old: Looking back, it was hardly surprising that I suffered a break-down. I had to attend to my wounds - emotional or otherwise - from my childhood. All those years, I had been avoiding it, pretending everything was fine. Now I feel much better, thanks to a Biblical God. And I wish - and practise - kindness towards my mother, because that’s what my god wants.</p> <p>If you’re suffering similarly right now, I hope my message encourages you.</p> </article> </div> <div class="pagination"> <a class="pagination-item older" href="/~rogbeer/page4">Older</a> <a class="pagination-item newer" href="/~rogbeer/page2">Newer</a> </div> </main> <footer class="footer"> <small> © <a href="">~rogbeer, whoever he is</a>, <time datetime="2021-08-14T09:45:39+00:00">2021</time>. All rights reserved. Built on <a href="https://jekyllrb.com/">Jekyll</a>, using the theme <a href="http://getpoole.com/">Poole</a>. Hosted on <a href="http://tilde.town/">tilde.town</a> </small> </footer> </div> </body> </html>