+ 'Which is a more difficult creation? You or the Heavens?' (from the Quran)
+
+ Praise be to the Most Merciful One, who is Oft-forgiving, and
+ the Accepting of repentance, and Compassionate
+ It is the eleventh day of the second month of the 105th year
+ since Man built a city with G!D's help and provisions
+
+ I went to a gathering of people today,
+ where people talked about hearing voices,
+ and their experiences. J, whom I met at the
+ meet-up, said that the people
+ were sharing personal experiences,
+ not giving advice,
+ and that was a plus.
+ A [']Japanese woman['] talked about her
+ experience of sexual abuse by her father,
+ and her perspective on it: that it was
+ a dark side of her life which she accepted
+ as a whole, together with the 'light'.
+
+ Writer's note: she also shared that her marriage
+ had... problems. Well, G!D knows truth, and I do not
+ claim to be G!D
+
+
+ I was surprised to discover that her story resonated with me. What
+ happened sexually [or spiritually] between my [']father['] and I,
+ when I was a [younger] child? If something did happen, where is my
+ focus - is it on blaming my [']father['], or on reflecting on
+ what is inside me, that is causing such an
+ incident to be mirrored in the outside reality?
+
+ My body and feelings seem to remember, even though I do not.
+
+ I want the truth. Could it be that I could not bear it now?
+
+ I feel discarded, like I was a dirty piece or towel. I feel
+ jealous that my [']father['] is spending time with my [']brother['].
+
+ from the writer: Jesus said, 'You are the salt of the earth. But if salt
+ loses its saltiness, who can make it salty again? It is no
+ longer good for anything, except to be thrown away, or trampled upon.
+
+ Jesus (who called himself the Son of Man) said, 'I am the Life, the Truth
+ and the Way.'
+
+ Jesus said to a man, 'Come, please follow me.'
+
+ I remember that these feelings
+
Jesus said, 'Can a blind man lead another blind man? Would
+ they not soon fall into a ditch?'
+
+
+ I remember that these feelings are a shadow of a concrete event
+ from my past, and that there is a message or lesson to be learnt,
+ that is beneath these feelings.
+
+ Oh, Father G!D, Abba, lift these feelings so that I can learn
+ and learn and hear and listen! In the name of
+ Christ Jesus, I ask this.
+ How do I view my [']father[']? What aspects of him do I not like,
+ and what do those reflect of myself? What I dislike about
+ him can be found within me. He was ignorant. He is unsensitive,
+ cowardly, indecisive, spineless, dull, quick-tempered, slow,
+ boring and controlling. What does that say about me?
+
+ from the writer: Jesus, the Anointed One, died to reconcile
+ many to G!D, in one eternal sacrifice. One sacrifice for
+ all eternity, in other words. (and it is divine in nature,
+ a sacrifice the world cannot give.)
+ As Scriptures say, 'All kinds of animals, birds, reptiles, and creatures
+ of the sea are being tamed and have been tamed by man, but no man can
+ tame the tongue. It is an unruly evil, full of deadly poison.
+ With the tongue we bless our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men,
+ who have been made in God’s likeness.
+ Out of the same mouth come blessing and cursing.
+ My brothers, this should not be!
+ Can both fresh water and bitter water flow from the same spring?
+ My brothers, can a fig tree grow olives, or a grapevine bear figs?
+ Neither can a salt spring produce fresh water. [on the Wisdom from Above]
+ Who is wise and understanding among you?
+ Let him show it by his good conduct, by deeds done in the humility
+ that comes from wisdom. But if you have bitter jealousy
+ and selfish ambition in your hearts,
+ do not boast in it or deny the truth.
+ Such wisdom does not come from above, but is earthly,
+ unspiritual, demonic. For where jealousy and selfish ambition
+ exist, there will be disorder and every evil practice.
+ But the wisdom from above is first of all pure,
+ then peace[-]able, gentle, accommodating, full of mercy and
+ good fruit, impartial, and sincere. Peacemakers who sow in
+ peace reap the fruit of righteousness.
+
+
+ What kind of hurt or trauma or woundedness did I have, in the past,
+ that is lying stagnant now?