Praise be to G!D, who hath helped me record

with G!D's help, I have a fruit, if only for G!D to see :-)
For I care not for the world or the praises of the world:
G!D forbid that I should glory in myself, save in the one and
only eternal sacrifice
of the Anointed One, who died in payment for the wrongdoings
of many against godliness, G!D, and their own souls - their very souls -
through whom I am crucified unto the world, and the world unto me.

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+    tis to glorify the Compassionate and Most Merciful One, who is Sovereign over the Here-after,
+    Lord of lords, King of kings, Creator of creators, redeemer of worms, husband to prostitutes with
+    poor spirit and lowly heart, the Accepting of the repentance of wicked, ungrateful thieves
+    and theivesses, the Most
+    Accepting of repentance.<br/>
+    Inspiration is verse in the Bible: 'Just as Jonah spent three days and nights in belly of fish,
+    so, too, will the Son of Man spend three days in <strike>belly</strike> of earth'. <br />
+    With G!D's help, if G!D is willing, one will help the other through a trial <strike>
+    
+    from</strike>
+    that
+    G!D
+    causes. To trade stories, if you will. 'For I am strong when I am weak', as written in Scripture,
+    'even though I am nothing at all [without the Anointed One,
+    through whom I can do all things], and 
+    so, am made to be like a fool by you - 
+    you have made me to be like a fool - boasting 
+    like this, even though I am nothing at all.
+    I do not count myself among the most 
+    eminent apostles, or the so-called super-apostles or uber-apostles. Still, I ought
+    to be receiving commendations from you lot. For we of the spirit of G!D
+    walk in each other's shoes, along the same path, and there
+    is no male or female, Jew or Gentile,
+    outsider or insider - all are one 
+    through the Anointed One who calls himself Son of Man, Jesus,
+    son of Mary, who conceived with the help of G!D when no man has
+    laid a hand or rod on her. This is to build you up.' <br/>
+    
+    As a verse in
+    Bible goes (yes, another Bible verse :-D ), (so grateful for Scripture), 'two is better
+    than one. if one falls down, the other can help the one up. if there is only one going at
+    it, that one has calamity upon them... him... her...'
+    <br />
+    It is the fifteenth day of the second month of the 105th year since a worldly nation
+    was publicly recognised. ('For everything of the world passes away, and is passing
+    away,' as Scripture has on record.)
+    
+    <br/>
+    <br/>
+    I'm frustrated at my Heavenly Father's presence,
+    whenever I think about a mother-figure. It seems that He will not
+    cease or stop whatever He is doing to remind me of Him when I think
+    about creating a mother-figure that I have lost. <br/><br/>
+    I feel grief at such a time - why? G!D, what is the message 
+    behind these feelings of loss and anxiety? <br/><br/>
+    I recall the octopus that I coloured rainbow, when
+    I was in kindergarten [before the age of seven, as the layman
+    knows it]. I felt hurt and unhappy that I had to colour it another
+    colour for [the] grades. I feel frustrated and boxed in.
+    I feel [like] that [feeling of] a square peg in a round
+    hole. I feel furious!
+    <br/><br/>
+    Like Father G!D [who is in Heaven and unseen and has no beings attached],
+    I created. That was an octopus
+    that could only be found in the rainbow
+    that formed from the dew-drops in a magical forest.
+    It was an octopus that you had to call into existence,
+    and to transfer to a water body large enough to contain
+    it. It was killed by the teacher, who was an alien in
+    disguise[,] and disliked magical beings. 
+    <br/><br/>
+    No matter how much I create, I won't be able to create a
+    mother-figure <br/><br/>
+    <i>from the writer: As written in Scripture, 'a wise son brings
+      joy to his Father; a foolish son brings grief to his mother.'</i>
+    <br/><br/>
+    Oh G!D, I am grieving. No matter how much magic I do, I won't be
+    able to get the same mother-figure, nor the memories of the times
+    with her. I lost someone who could have made great memories with me
+    as her son. She won't get any more memories with me.
+    <br/><br/>
+    <i>
+      from the writer: 'I despise all those who cling on to worthless idols
+      or carven images, or images of G!D, who has no beings attached.
+      All those who would speak up for worthless idols are foolish fools.'
+      All these can be found in Scripture, which implies you have
+      to take up a quest to search, if you will, and if G!D is willing.
+      'I have observed an abhor-able, horrible thing in Ephraim and Israel:
+      my people prostituting themselves to other gods!' The LORD G!D says.
+      
+    
+    <br/><br/>
+      I thank G!D who hath counted me among ministry, and enabled me to me
+      among the faithful.
+      <br/><br/>
+      I praise You, G!D, for you have shown lovingkindness. I will tell the 
+      world about your wonderful deeds in my life, You who
+      grant even passage of boats across oceans and unknown waters,
+      and brings wealth from the sea, houses I did not build,
+      rocks that I did not create, life I did not call into being,
+      fruits I did not sow the seeds of, and even divine reconciliation
+      to G!D and godliness, a peace that the world does not give,
+      and a redemption and promise and eternity that the world cannot
+      give - does not give - and You are sure to keep Your promises, O
+      G!D of Truth and truth and Ruth and Naomi, who asked to be
+      named Mara, which means 'bitter', for she was embittered, even
+      though her name, 'Naomi', meant 'pleasant'.
+      </i>
+    <br/><br/>
+    It seems as if G!D wants me to go to Him as He creates, not stay on my side,
+    looking for Mother.
+    <br/><br/>
+    <i>from the writer: oh, how horrible - looking for Mother, so-called mother.
+    </i>
+    <br/><br/>
+    Whenever the mother-figure came into my life, she is dead now. I have hardly
+    any memories of her; the feeling remains in me.
+    <br/><br/>
+    <i>
+      From the writer: No longer. Rejoice in the LORD. I say again, rejoice!
+      You were bought with a price. Remember G!D's terrors, signs and wonders
+      that He hath rehearsed to you. Everybody has heard about your obedience,
+      and I rejoice. As the Son of Man said, 'Blessed are you who
+      are mourning, for you will be comforted.'
+      <br/><br/>
+      As Scriptures have on record: 'little ones, continue doing what
+      you are doing. Your Father approves.' <br/><br/>
+      <br/><br/>
+      On a related note, since came to Mind, people asked or told Jesus,
+      who was teaching in a synagogue: 'Your mother and brothers and sisters
+      are outside the city gates, waiting for you.' Jesus said,
+      'my brothers and sisters and mother are those who obey G!D,
+      and keep His commandments, and obey them.' This is in Scripture, too.
+      <br/><br/>
+      On yet another related note, a famous Zen saying goes,
+      'When you see the Buddha, kill him! When you see your parents, kill them!'
+      As fierce as that may 'sound', G!D will show you Truth and truth, if He is willing,
+      and if you try your best (with all you have: your time and energy and 
+      resources) to seek Him. For as Scriptures say: 'Seek ye G!D with all your
+      heart, and ye shall find Me'. And as the Son of Man said
+      to those who said to those who cried to him - 'We want to enter
+      the kingdom of G!D, too! We want to enter into Paradise! How should we 
+      do it?' - 'the road to the kingdom of G!D is a narrow one. But try your best.'
+      <br/><br/>
+      On yet another related note, the Buddha was asked which was more
+      important: wisdom or compassion (something like lovingkindness). The Buddha
+      answered: 'Effort. Effort is most important'.
+      <br/><br/>
+      'Brothers and sisters, I do not think I have made it my own. One thing I do:
+      forgetting what lies behind, and pushing on-ward, for the upward call of G!D
+      through the Anointed One, Jesus, through whom I am crucified unto the world,
+      and the world unto me.' This is in Scripture, too.
+    </i>
+    <br/><br/>
+    There is no one woman who is Her, or can compare to Her.
+    <br/><br/>
+    <i>From the writer: oh, how disgusting. Kimochi warui, a Japanese expression
+      or pronunciation goes. Feeling a sense of despise.
+      <br/><br/>
+      On a related note, 'Kimochi warui' is the last line in the ending scene
+      of a movie in the animated story, 'Neon Genesis Evangelion', which is
+      described as 'anime (or animated stories) for adults'. The ending scene
+      featured a cross that evokes a remembrance of the crucifixion of
+      a famous figure. A sacrifice, scary in nature or feel, if you watch
+      the scene, of the protagonist, who is somehow in a robot that
+      seems to be- well, G!D knows, and I do not know. For these are worldly
+      things, yet the series is popularly posited to be subtly
+      touching on themes of psychology, if you believe the rumor that goes around,
+      and yet Bible - Scriptures - express concern that 'I will not like
+      what I see in you when I come to you, and you will not like
+      what you see in me. What I will not like to see in you:
+      deceitfulness, divisions, jealousies, gossip and gossips, slander,
+      arrogance against godliness, and delight in wickedness.'
+      So, on that note, praise be to G!D, who is true, and keeps promises
+      that He makes - I prayed to G!D, the Blessed Father, Ruler of the Universe,
+      who causes boats to have integrity throughout journeys and pilgrimages
+      across waters, Hallowed Name, and The Almighty One, who is All-knowing,
+      All-hearing, All-seeing, heard me and listened. I prayed to Him
+      to remind me to fear Him always, 'for fear of G!D is the beginning
+      of wisdom, but fools despise wisdom and instruction, or Guidance', as Scriptures
+      have on record, and He answered my prayer.
+      <br/><br/>
+      On a related note, the ending of the popular anime, or animated story,
+      Full Metal Alchemist, featured a sacrifice of the protagonist, that is
+      strikingly resonant with the death and resurrection of the dead
+      that Scriptures have on record: 'unless it is what I have spoken: that
+      I have hope of the resurrection of the dead'.
+      <br/><br/>
+      Glory be to G!D in the Highest, and peace be upon those whom G!D favours.
+      Now, may the love of G!D, and the fellowship of those who are in the 
+      Spirit of G!D, and the grace of the Anointed One whom we call Teacher
+      and Lord, who calls himself 'Son of Man', be with you all. 
+      (and so it is).
+      Amen.
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