+ What? What are you looking at?
+ Can't you see tis about you?
+ (Can't you see that it is about you?)
+ Supposedly one of the quotes that G!D has
+ brought me before,
+ from a Mister Homeless Kodo. Mister
+ Suzuki. (
+
+ whom G!D has also
+ shown me to have human foibles,
+ especially in it: (what)
+ faith in
+ the one whom G!D has sent,
+ and trust in a higher Mind.
+ But who am I to comment?
+ 'For we are indeed not perfect.
+ If we were perfect, we would be a perfect
+ man, able to control every part
+ of our body, or every organ - for example,
+ anus (or
+ burps or farts
+ or thoughts or itches) - at will. So, not many of you,
+ brethren, should become teachers,
+ for we are indeed judged more
+ strictly, or stringently, than
+ others.' (from Scriptures).
+
+
+ So, something G!D gave me, now giving
+ as freely as it was received.
+ So in certain village,
+ people live and glory themselves
+ in their shameful nakedness. And
+ they do not know it, so they are disgraced.
+ (like the well-known story of
+ the emperor with no clothes, but another
+ story that is, for another time.)
+ (and indeed I am nothing at all.)
+ So, G!D has mercifully and compassionately
+ brought me before a set of questions
+ to hold hands, if you will, of those
+ who chase money or riches of the world.
+ They are as follows:
+
+ First'C': what is the centre
+ of my life? ('You must have an
+ un-shake-able centre,' said the
+ one whom G!D had brought me to.)Second 'C':
+ What is the character of my life?
+ (memory is a little foggy. shomething
+ about shape. Mnemonics (that is, memory
+ device. To make memorisation
+ easier.) S-H-A-P-E.
+ -
+ 'S". Support maybe?
+ -
+ 'H'. Happiness? What makes me happy?
+ Or what makes me feel good?
+ Good feels that come without
+ drugs that cost money?
+ (A certain Mister Robbins
+ talked about this in a book.
+ 'Making love with my wife, that
+ makes me feel good,' he said. '
+ Exercise on [some equipment
+
+ something something].')
+
+ -
+ 'A'.
+
+ Attractive? Which part of me
+ or my life do I find really
+ attractive? G!D
+ brought me to an exercise
+ that a person required
+ for homework during
+ university years. 'Ask
+ your friends, or people
+ whom
+ you've worked with,
+ for your
+ RBS. (what's RBS) [Something]
+ Best Self. Ask them
+ when they saw you at your best.
+ Co-workers. People you've
+ lost touch with.
+ People whom you maybe
+ did some research with,
+ or did a project with. (and
+ then separated or dis-banded
+ after that.)
+ In my case,
+ that was homework, and it felt
+ awkward to ask. But am I glad I
+ did that. (in
+ hind-sight). Others viewed me
+ in a positive light, because
+ the question was about
+ my best possible self. And that was
+ pleasantly surprising. It helped me
+ feel esteemed in away I did not know
+ I could feel esteemed. It's kinda healthy,
+ not bragging pridefully, more accepting,
+ if you will, what you've got in this
+ brief life? (['cos] Baby you're a fire-work /
+ Come on, let your colours burst /
+ Let them go high, hi, high /
+ (make them go: 'ah, ah, ah')
+ As you shoot across the sky - aye,
+ aye' (G!D brought me to a little
+ one who sang something like that.)
+ So that's 's', 'h', and 'a'.
+ 'p' and 'e' are left. Wow.
+ What an exercise for memory.
+ -
+ 'P'. Personality maybe? Or
+ your points of pain? You know,
+ loneliness could be a point of pain.
+ And, uh,
+ If you talk about it, you don't
+ have to, but if you wanna, maybe,
+ just maybe, you'll find some
+ solace. You could put in a diary
+ maybe. Or you could really-
+ it's gonna sound icky or
+ off-putting, at first, at least,
+ but you could try... talking to a
+ counsellor. A professional one.
+ I talked to a counsellor myself.
+ And it helped that it was non-judgmental.
+ (G!D gave me a quote in my life:
+ 'People are so in lack - or
+ maybe not in lack, but simply
+ forgotten - on the skill of
+ listening. That's why
+ you have people
now who are
+ getting paid to listen. Life
+ coaches. Counsellors. Whatever
+ you call them. So,
+ stigma aside, you definitely
+ deserve - it won't be apparent,
+ at first - you have every right
+ to be attended to, or listened
+ to, without any judgment coming
+ into what you are trying to say.
+ So, those people you hang out
+ with over a beer might not be
+ the best at helping to talk
+ about whatever you wanna talk
+ about. Yeah. You do not
+ realise it know, but you definitely
+ deserve attention or care that does not
+ feel like [eating]
+ a rotten sandwich. Or,
+ you deserve to be away from
+ people, whoops, any-body
+ or any voice in your head that
+ tells you you deserve only
+ to eat a rotten sandwich. But of
+ course, you won't realise it now;
+ but you will realise or understand
+ after-ward.
+ So, that's 'P'.
+ -
+ And 'E'. (laughing). (huh).
+ You know, it is written in Scriptures,
+ 'Sarah said, "G!D has made me
+ laugh - G!D made me laugh - so
+ that those who can hear will laugh
+ with me."'
+ So, 'E' is for 'experience[s]'.
+
+
+ So that's 'SHAPE'. S-H-A-P-E.
+ So, what came to mind, was
+ how those who are labelled
+ with mental illnesses may not
+ be experts in knowledge (or
+ so-called knowledge) of so-called
+ mental illnesses. As much as that
+ may be so, they are experts on
+ their experiences. Experts by experience,
+ they are. Just like how you
+ can get a Master's degree by research
+ or thesis or what- uh, what-ever.)
+ So, ask yourself: where are the subjective experts on
+ their experiences? Are you an expert on
+ your experience of life or G!D or god?
+ So, what are they, those whom you call
+ 'patients' or 'un-well', if you
+ are an expert on your experience
+ of life or your limits or your
+ god? Are they any less or any more
+ an expert on your experience of life,
+ than you are an expert on theirs? So,
+ how come you are the expert
+ [on their life], and not them?
+ 'You hypocrite. You say to your brother,
+ "take the pin out of your eye. Here, let me
+ help you." Take the log out of your
+ own eye first, then you can see clearly
+ to help your brother.' That's what Jesus said.
+ It's in Scriptures. And hate me. Why?
+ Because Jesus was hated, too. And I'm
+ honoured to be in his company. Or the
+ company of those whom G!D sends, for
+ they are ridiculed by those of the world,
+ since the times of the fathers of those
+ who ridicule the messengers of G!D. This is in
+ Scriptures. Send me everything you got,
+ in your hatred or hate, because G!D is
+ the best at planning. And if you wait,
+ I, too, will wait. And my fear is
+ fear of G!D. Not fear of
+ seeming foolish or incompetent, although
+ that got to me, too, while chasing
+ after yardsticks, what-ever - which I realise,
+ that as long as G!D loves me, I need no
+ benchmark or yardstick to measure myself
+ against, other than my obedience to G!D.
+ And how do you measure that? So, any-way.
+
+
+
+ -
+ Back to the 'C', huh. 'Centre of my life'.
+ 'Character of my life'. Then, another 'C'.
+ 'Community'. Who are my people?
+ A quote goes like this - for G!D has
+ given me the chance to see, so freely
+ giving what
+ have
+ received readily and freely -
+ 'She can breathe life into the tiniest
+ mouse-deer or gazelle-child, with the
+ most tender of touches, but
+ she knows
+ where her land is, or,
+ who her people are,
+ and who, or what, is not her land,
+ or people.'
+ Or, who do I want to spend time with? :-)
+ People who play playfully and boldly point
+ out baldies who think they have a lustrous
+ mane, or (oh, doing those are
+ not necessarily bad, you know, even though
+ they do not like it). Yeah, do I wanna
+ hang out with Truth, or do I wanna-
+ you know, it's the blue pill, or red pill,
+ question, right? The red pill hurts, your
+ life will never be the same. Or, you can
+ take the blue pill, and pretend all
+ these (or this) never happened.
+ Go, go on, no one (oh, G!D just humbled me -
+ a reminder that human effort counts for
+ nothing. And what Scriptures
+ record - Paul's concern for
+ Corinthians, or people of
+ Corinth, comes to mind.) Any-way,
+ it's your choice to make. And G!D,
+ or Truth, (why? G!D is Truth,
+ or, G!D is true and just in His ways
+ and judgments; praise be to G!D)
+ G!D, or Truth, is not un-easy to have
+ no believers among you. Peace be with you,
+ in the name of Christ Jesus. The kingdom
+ of G!D is near! It is not far from you!
+
+
+
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