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My god, G!D, the Compassionate and Most Merciful One- with His help, I have a collection of talks, or what others did learn from their experiences, and surely, G!D, who brought me to all these, is good. To my enemies, especially, G!D loves you, so with His blessings, which He hath gi

ven me, giving all these as blessings to my enemies - for the love of G!D. For the love of G!D. For the love of G!D.

man: 'I fear G!D!' woman: 'Good. That makes you decent. A gentleman.'
(from a book that G!D brought me before, the title of which G!D knows, and I do not know. Yes, G!D knows, and I do not.)

boy: 'If everybody has these gifts, why are they not successful or happy?'
ex-military-man: 'They do not believe that they can be successful or happy.' (from a book that G!D have brought me before: Cohen, A. H. 'How good can it get?: what I learnt from the richest man in the world', or something like that. Hampton Roads Publishing Company. Charlottesville, VA: Canada).

Every generation has to un-earth their own wisdom for themselves (or them-self). They hav' to discover their own wisdom for themselves. They have to go on their own adventure; they have to choose to start adventuring, or otherwise make Wisdom their sister.
(from a book that G!D has brought me before: Villoldo, A. 'Illumination: the shaman's way of healing'. Hay House, Inc. New York City, NY: the United States of America.)

'Unhealed emotions' called out to me as I browsed through pages. The words 'unhealed emotions' called out, with G!D's help, to me.

My god, o Almighty One, Creator of the Universe . as surely as the LORD G!D lives, the words of the LORD were fulfilled in my life: 'A woman will surround a man. I will do a thing never seen before. A woman will protect a man.' (this is from Scriptures). O Judge over the Day of Judgment, glory is Yours.

When does tiger not run from sheep? When does tiger not run after sheep? When does sheep not run from tiger :-) *_* ('Wolves - man is the wolf of man', G!D reminds me of a quote from somewhere) Stone tiger stares at stone sheep. No running, no hiding. No flinching. Stone sheep does not run from stone tiger. ^_^

'I am sending you as sheep among wolves. Lambs. Therefore, be as shrewd as snakes, and as innocent as doves.' - Jesus, son of Mary, who calls uses the title 'Son of Man' for himself.

What? What are you looking at? Can't you see tis about you? (Can't you see that it is about you?) Supposedly one of the quotes that G!D has brought me before, from a Mister Homeless Kodo. Mister Suzuki. ( whom G!D has also shown me to have human foibles, especially in it: (what) faith in the one whom G!D has sent, and trust in a higher Mind. But who am I to comment? 'For we are indeed not perfect. If we were perfect, we would be a perfect man, able to control every part of our body, or every organ - for example, anus (or burps or farts or thoughts or itches) - at will. So, not many of you, brethren, should become teachers, for we are indeed judged more strictly, or stringently, than others.' (from Scriptures).

So, something G!D gave me, now giving as freely as it was received. So in certain village, people live and glory themselves in their shameful nakedness. And they do not know it, so they are disgraced. (like the well-known story of the emperor with no clothes, but another story that is, for another time.) (and indeed I am nothing at all.) So, G!D has mercifully and compassionately brought me before a set of questions to hold hands, if you will, of those who chase money or riches of the world. They are as follows:

~~First~~'C': what is the centre of my life? ('You must have an un-shake-able centre,' said the one whom G!D had brought me to.)
~~Second~~ 'C': What is the character of my life? (memory is a little foggy. shomething about shape. Mnemonics (that is, memory device. To make memorisation easier.) S-H-A-P-E.
- 'S". Support maybe?
- 'H'. Happiness? What makes me happy? Or what makes me feel good? Good feels that come without drugs that cost money? (A certain Mister Robbins talked about this in a book. 'Making love with my wife, that makes me feel good,' he said. ' Exercise on [some equipment something something].')
- 'A'. Attractive? Which part of me or my life do I find really attractive? G!D brought me to an exercise that a person required for homework during university years. 'Ask your friends, or people whom you've worked with, for your RBS. (what's RBS) [Something] Best Self. Ask them when they saw you at your best. Co-workers. People you've lost touch with. People whom you maybe did some research with, or did a project with. (and then separated or dis-banded after that.) In my case, that was homework, and it felt awkward to ask. But am I glad I did that. (in hind-sight). Others viewed me in a positive light, because the question was about my best possible self. And that was pleasantly surprising. It helped me feel esteemed in away I did not know I could feel esteemed. It's kinda healthy, not bragging pridefully, more accepting, if you will, what you've got in this brief life? (['cos] Baby you're a fire-work / Come on, let your colours burst / Let them go high, hi, high / (make them go: 'ah, ah, ah') As you shoot across the sky - aye, aye' (G!D brought me to a little one who sang something like that.) So that's 's', 'h', and 'a'. 'p' and 'e' are left. Wow. What an exercise for memory.
- 'P'. Personality maybe? Or your points of pain? You know, loneliness could be a point of pain. And, uh, If you talk about it, you don't have to, but if you wanna, maybe, just maybe, you'll find some solace. You could put in a diary maybe. Or you could really- it's gonna sound icky or off-putting, at first, at least, but you could try... talking to a counsellor. A professional one. I talked to a counsellor myself. And it helped that it was non-judgmental. (G!D gave me a quote in my life: 'People are so in lack - or maybe not in lack, but simply forgotten - on the skill of listening. That's why you have people ~~now~~ who are getting paid to listen. Life coaches. Counsellors. Whatever you call them. So, stigma aside, you definitely deserve - it won't be apparent, at first - you have every right to be attended to, or listened to, without any judgment coming into what you are trying to say. So, those people you hang out with over a beer might not be the best at helping to talk about whatever you wanna talk about. Yeah. You do not realise it know, but you definitely deserve attention or care that does not feel like [eating] a rotten sandwich. Or, you deserve to be away from people, whoops, any-body or any voice in your head that tells you you deserve only to eat a rotten sandwich. But of course, you won't realise it now; but you will realise or understand after-ward. So, that's 'P'.
- And 'E'. (laughing). (huh). You know, it is written in Scriptures, 'Sarah said, "G!D has made me laugh - G!D made me laugh - so that those who can hear will laugh with me."' So, 'E' is for 'experience[s]'.
So that's 'SHAPE'. S-H-A-P-E. So, what came to mind, was how those who are labelled with mental illnesses may not be experts in knowledge (or so-called knowledge) of so-called mental illnesses. As much as that may be so, they are experts on their experiences. Experts by experience, they are. Just like how you can get a Master's degree by research or thesis or what- uh, what-ever.) So, ask yourself: where are the subjective experts on their experiences? Are you an expert on your experience of life or G!D or god? So, what are they, those whom you call 'patients' or 'un-well', if you are an expert on your experience of life or your limits or your god? Are they any less or any more an expert on your experience of life, than you are an expert on theirs? So, how come you are the expert [on their life], and not them? 'You hypocrite. You say to your brother, "take the pin out of your eye. Here, let me help you." Take the log out of your own eye first, then you can see clearly to help your brother.' That's what Jesus said. It's in Scriptures. And hate me. Why? Because Jesus was hated, too. And I'm honoured to be in his company. Or the company of those whom G!D sends, for they are ridiculed by those of the world, since the times of the fathers of those who ridicule the messengers of G!D. This is in Scriptures. Send me everything you got, in your hatred or hate, because G!D is the best at planning. And if you wait, I, too, will wait. And my fear is fear of G!D. Not fear of seeming foolish or incompetent, although that got to me, too, while chasing after yardsticks, what-ever - which I realise, that as long as G!D loves me, I need no benchmark or yardstick to measure myself against, other than my obedience to G!D. And how do you measure that? So, any-way.
Back to the 'C', huh. 'Centre of my life'. 'Character of my life'. Then, another 'C'. 'Community'. Who are my people? A quote goes like this - for G!D has given me the chance to see, so freely giving what have received readily and freely - 'She can breathe life into the tiniest mouse-deer or gazelle-child, with the most tender of touches, but she knows where her land is, or, who her people are, and who, or what, is not her land, or people.' Or, who do I want to spend time with? :-) People who play playfully and boldly point out baldies who think they have a lustrous mane, or (oh, doing those are not necessarily bad, you know, even though they do not like it). Yeah, do I wanna hang out with Truth, or do I wanna- you know, it's the blue pill, or red pill, question, right? The red pill hurts, your life will never be the same. Or, you can take the blue pill, and pretend all these (or this) never happened. Go, go on, no one (oh, G!D just humbled me - a reminder that human effort counts for nothing. And what Scriptures record - Paul's concern for Corinthians, or people of Corinth, comes to mind.) Any-way, it's your choice to make. And G!D, or Truth, (why? G!D is Truth, or, G!D is true and just in His ways and judgments; praise be to G!D) G!D, or Truth, is not un-easy to have no believers among you. Peace be with you, in the name of Christ Jesus. The kingdom of G!D is near! It is not far from you!

The inspiration this time is the chronicles of the jourmeys of the children of Israel, which are written in Scriptures.

The undergraduate went to a meditation group. Then he went to a meditation group , departing from there.

Tell me, how would you represent your so-called family, if I- members of your so-called family - if I gave you all the letters that are used to write this paragraph to make words? You may only use the letters (of the alphabet) that appear in this paragraph. For example, if I gave you the words, 'held pee in' only, you could use the letters in those three words to form the words that follow: 'i need help'. In the same way, for I have not much more time to speak with you, could- how would you- what words can you- what words would you use, from the words that you can discover from the letters in this paragraph - what words would you use to describe each member of what you consider your family?

'For we brought nothing into the world, andb neither can we carry anything out of it. 8But if we have food and clothing, we will be content with these. 9Those who want to be rich, however, fall into temptation and become ensnared by many foolish and harmful desires that plunge them into ruin and destruction. 10For the love of money is the root of all kinds of evil. By craving it, some have wandered away from the faith and pierced themselves with many sorrows. Fight the Good Fight 11But you, O man of God, flee from these things and pursue righteousness, godliness, faith, love, perseverance, and gentleness. ' (prologue of Timothy, chapter 6) http://biblehub.com/bsb/1_timothy/6.htm

Since two are longer two, but are now one, let them not be separated, for G!D hath enjoined them. (gospel of Matthew)

What are you doing here?
Go back where you came from.
I have had enough.
I am the only one left.
Get up and eat.
(book of Kings. where ? Scriptures. Bible.)

'Two is better than one. if one falls down, the other can restore the one. But if one goes at G!D-knows-what-and-I-do-not-know alone, he... she... they... how sorrowful it is for them!' (from Scriptures. book of Ecclesiastes, maybe.)

'Beth Haran and an unknown thing, and fortified cities, and folds for sheep[, the children of Gad built].' (from book of Numbers)

'Those who have two sets of clothing, give one to the one who has none.' - Isa

'My enemies scorn and despise me on all sides. My friends are afraid of me, and turn away when they see me on the streets. But I put my trust in you, O LORD G!D. Rescue me from the traps my enemies set for me. Silence the lips of those who defy godliness with their arrogant words, and lofty speech that come from diseased hearts and eyes that pride compasses. I praise You. G!D. for You have shown lovingkindness, even to a worm, and a little one, and a wicked, ungrateful thievess (or thief) and a prostitute with a lowly heart and a poor spirit, such as myself. (a psalm from Scriptures)

As Scriptures say, 'How abundant are the good things that you have stored up for those who fear you, that you bestow in the sight of all, on those who take refuge in you.'

Resources for people who have been labelled with 'schizophrenia', in the hopes that G!D will assure you that everything is going to be okay (as Jesus said, 'You do not understand now, but you will come to understand later.'). [writing about what helped me cope with self-doubt and what were, frankly, terrors and a sense of destruction and helplessness is one way (out of others which may be unknown to me) of giving as freely as I have received (which was what Jesus taught: 'Freely you have received. Now freely give.' ^_^ ) ] With G!D's help, reading the information from the following web-sites helped me feel more well-equipped, capable, and competent and comforted and empowered. If G!D is willing, you may go there, and if they do not have the same effect on you, it's not your fault - do not beat yourself up too much; you do not have to do that, even though there is a tendency to; or, there can be a tendency to. G!D knows, and I do not know, what you are going through. G!D knows best what to do with you. I'm just glad, if you have been labelled with 'schizophrenia', (or other psychiatric labels or labels of other kinds) that you have come or visited web-site. The LORD be with you.

Hearing Voices Network
Soul in Exile: Schizophrenia, Jung & a Psychiatric Evaluation of Psychiatry

And of course, reading about the experience of Mister Jay Eu En Gee (J-U-N-G) or Miss J-U-N-G or - G!D knows, and I do not know - who, yea, well, that's re-assuring, in a way, that what society ultimately benefits from requires even rejection from that very same society, and definitely a separation from society. (and that's putting it mildly.) Jesus says it better, or Scriptures: ' I have chosen you out of the world. They are of the world. And for that reason, they hate you.' And as a reminder: 'I chose you. You did not choose Me. I chose you. And appointed you. So that you may go and bear fruit that lasts long. And so that whatever you ask my Father in My name, you will receive.' (from Scriptures)

Motivation for effort often comes from the following verse from the Bible: 'You have a reputation for being alive, but you are dead! Wake up! Strengthen what remains.' Glory be to G!D for-ever and ever. Amen.

More haiku from a ward, I have, with the help of the Lord of lords :-)

Haiku from a ward, I have, with G!D's help!

The Son of Man is coming

Is anyone thirsty? Come and drink— even if you have no money! Come, take your choice of wine or milk— it’s all free! (Isaiah 55:1)

Fear the Lord G!D. That is all you need to know. (Proverbs 1:7)
But fools despise instruction and wisdom.

This will be a sign to you. Scriptures write too: when the hour comes that life bursts forth out of the fig tree, that is, the tree puts out its green leaves, and its bark turns tender, you will know that summer is near.

Let your light so shine before men, that your Father, who is in Heaven, is glorified.

Let there arise out of you a band of people inviting to all that is good, enjoining what is right, and forbidding what is wrong: They are the ones to attain felicity. (Chapter Name:Al-Emran. Verse No:104)

Want a volunteer? Here , if you will, and if G!D is willing ^_^

~~Commit~~ history on Github, of development, with G!D's help, is there, which you may go if G!D is willing.

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Jesus died on ~~the cross~~ a tree, and was resurrected
Ivory from elephant tusks fill piano keys - Jehovah's gift
Rolling logs mash each other into pulp which dries to paper. How generous
Kingdom and seeds; saviour and sower. He said, 'Peace'

Diary project

'Tell no one about this,' Jesus said. 'Go home (to thy friends), and tell what G!D has done in your life.' (Mark 5:19)
'And hold fast, all together, by the rope which Allah (stretches out for you), and be not divided among yourselves; and remember with gratitude Allah's favour on you; for ye were enemies and He joined your hearts in love, so that by His Grace, ye became brethren; and ye were on the brink of the pit of Fire, and He saved you from it. Thus doth Allah make His Signs clear to you: That ye may be guided.' (chapter 3, verse 103)
Your Almighty G!D and my Almighty G!D are the same G!D. He created Heaven and Earth and the Universe and everything in it. He is G!D of Abraham, and G!D of the prophets.
Compassionate and Merciful in the Most - G!D who is slow to anger, and oft-forgiving, Whom thou shalt not put to the test (as Scripture says).
In my folly I have prostituted myself to something that cannot help me at all. Detestably, I have taken a toilet-bowl (or a water-closet) - you know, a pipe that you poop in - as a god. I have feared the wrath of a god of a toilet bowl, and attempted to please that god. Over a period of time, those attempts included: knelt in front of a toilet-bowl; bit a toilet-bowl.
'Save me,' I desperately cried to a toilet-bowl.
'The poor, deluded fool feeds on ashes. He trusts in something that cannot help him at all! Yet he cannot bring himself to reflect or think to himself: "Is this thing, that I am holding in my hand, a lie?" (Isaiah 44:20)
And yet, G!D has enabled me to write this, and I thank the Almighty Lord of lords, and King of kings; praise G!D, I do, for He has shown loving-kindness, and mercy that is in the Most High. To G!D be the glory.
It took time. And terrors, admonishments (out of dear love), and signs and wonders, G!D has convinced me that He has paid a price to redeem a prostitute like myself.
'This observance will be for you like a sign on your hand and a reminder on your forehead that this law of the LORD is to be on your lips. For the LORD brought you out of Egypt with his mighty hand.' (Exodus 13:9, New International Version)
'You will tell your son: 'I do this, because the LORD, G!D of Abraham and the Prophets, has done wonders and marvels for me when He brought me out of Egypt.' (Exodus 13:8)
So, testify, as a witness of G!D, I shall. Drugs - things: bitter in taste, white in colour, and smaller than a finger-nail in size. Those whom I turned to - shepherds, of renown in the land - charged me money for those things, and kept me in a pen that I could not leave from, even if I asked nicely.
'This thing gives me uneasiness. I wake up in the middle of the night to walk; I feel compelled. And it gives me convulsions in my hands sometimes.' This I told them.
And they said, 'Here's another thing. Eat it. It controls the uneasiness of the thing that you talked about.'
'But,' they continued, 'It does things to you, even though it controls the thing that you talked about.'
I did not know what they talked about. This thing, that thing.
The shepherds - some of them, at least - intimidated me. 'If you do not do as we say,' they hinted, in a way that was not very nice, 'you will keep staying in this pen. You will not be let out.'
So, ate both things, I tremulously did. Indeed, I was afraid of consequences that men promised unto me, instead of fearing the Almighty One. I wanted to get out of that pen. And so, I dis-obeyed not, but co-operated, although I have voiced my defiance to their ways a few times.

'Finish your food,' they said. And I was afraid. So I ate, although I had been feeling very full at that point.
(Later they would give me a recipe for 'sayur lodeh', when I asked them how to make a certain mixture that I had eaten.)
'Drink water with your "medicine",' they said. And I was fed up. 'No,' I said. 'I am going to eat "medicine" without water. See, it enters my body just fine.'
And they said, in a way that was not very nice, 'Drink water with the "medicine", or else.'
I walked away, but I was anxious to get out of that pen, and keen to appear co-operative. (And they had others to talk to.) So, I returned to them, but they said, 'Don't worry. We've recorded that you were obedient enough. That is, that you have eaten "medicine".'
Anyhow, this story is becoming godless.
Long story short, they left me. they care nothing for me.
All your lovers have forgotten you; they care nothing for you; for I have dealt you the blow of an enemy, the punishment of a merciless foe, because your guilt is great, because your sins are flagrant. (Jeremiah 30:14, ESV)
Alas! That day is so great there is none like it; it is a time of distress for Jacob; yet he shall be saved out of it. (Jeremiah 30:7)
'For I will restore health to you, and your wounds I will heal,' declares the Lord, 'because they have called you an outcast: "It is Zion, for whom no one cares!" (Jeremiah 30:17)
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Therefore all who devour you shall be devoured, and all your foes, every one of them, shall go into captivity; those who plunder you shall be plundered, and all who prey on you I will make a prey.' (Jeremiah 30:16)
'For I am with you to save you,' declares the Lord; 'I will make a full end of all the nations among whom I scattered you, but of you I will not make a full end. I will discipline you in just measure, and I will by no means leave you unpunished.' (Jeremiah 30:11)
'Then fear not, O Jacob my servant, declares the Lord, nor be dismayed, O Israel; for behold, I will save you from far away, and your offspring from the land of their captivity. Jacob shall return and have quiet and ease, and none shall make him afraid.' (Jeremiah 30:10)
Indeed, as it is written in the Bible, G!D exalts those who humble themselves before Him, and humbles those who exalt themselves before Him.
Why?
For it is written in the Bible: ' Now you are slaves of other nations, but I will break the chains and smash the yokes that keep you in slavery. Then you will be my servants, and I will choose a king for you from the family of David.' (Jeremiah 30:8-9, CEV)
Almighty One, great are your deeds! Fabulous, marvellous!
Why?
For is it not written in the Bible: 'Your hearts will swell with joy - even your heart of hearts - and you will be as calves let out to pasture.'
I praise You, G!D, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful; that I know full well. (from the Bible)
And it is written in the Quran: 'If good touches you, it distresses them; but if harm strikes you, they rejoice at it. And if you are patient and fear Allah , their plot will not harm you at all. Indeed, Allah is encompassing of what they do.' (Chapter 3, verse 120)
'Bless those who persecute you. Don’t curse them; pray that God will bless them. Be happy with those who are happy, and weep with those who weep.' (Romans 12:14-15, NLT)
'Dear friends, never take revenge. Leave that to the righteous anger of God. For the Scriptures say, “I will take revenge; I will pay them back,” says the LORD. Instead, “If your enemies are hungry, feed them. If they are thirsty, give them something to drink. In doing this, you will heap burning coals of shame on their heads.” Don’t let evil conquer you, but conquer evil by doing good.' (Romans 12:19-21, NLT)
'Be merciful, as your Master is merciful.' - Jesus
So, G!D admonishes and sets trials and obstacles. Admonishes out of dear love. Trials, so that if you overcome, a reward is for you, with the LORD, G!D of Abraham. (Book of Revelations, if you're interested.)
Happily ever after, by a servant of G!D who created Heaven and Earth - G!D who knows all, hears all and sees all (G!D knows and you do not) - G!D who knows the hearts and minds of men, G!D who loves justice, and detests wickedness.
So remind me, G!D, to fear You, and to humble myself before You, and to let Your will be done, not mine.
'And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus.' (Phillipians 4:19, NLT)
For it is written in the Quran: 'Bring glad tidings, invite them to your LORD, practice charity openly and secretly, and do righteousness that is godly - it is not righteousness to turn to the East or the West, but it is righteousness to obey G!D, and to keep His commandments.'

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In the Quran, it is written: 'Take Sadaqah (alms) from their wealth in order to purify them and sanctify them with it, and invoke Allah for them. Verily! Your invocations are a source of security for them, and Allah is All-Hearer, All-Knower.'
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With the help of the LORD G!D, who is Most Merciful, I've contributed to the following projects:

Tatoeba. My commits are there.
Gogs. G!D forbid that I glory in myself, save only in the cross of Christ Jesus. And yet, if G!D is willing, you may find my commits there.

To you who think you have 'mental illness', and are trying to 'control' that with abominations that are man-made, the Bible has a verse, oh the G!D-breathed Word that is suitable for rebuking and disciplining so that you are wise for salvation through the Christ: 'A house divided cannot stand'

On people who are involved with the death penalty: executioner, legal procedure people. The Bible has said, 'Put away your swords, For those who live by the sword will die by the sword.'
And that is supposedly a gift from the Lord Christ Jesus. 'Those who have Ears, let them hear,’goes another part of the Bible.

Now when Jesus was asked 'Are you Son of G!d' Jesus said 'It is as you say. Furthermore, I tell you now that I am resurrecting in three days after my death, by the power given me by my Father in Heaven' 'Blasphemy,' they said, sending Jesus to crucifixion (Thy will be done on Heaven, and thy will be done on earth as on Heaven. O blessed are you, Father in Heaven, King of the Universe, Ruler of Heaven. Hallowed be thy name.) Apostle Paul said, 'My execution of Christians was before the Lord Christ Jesus appeared to me, saying, 'Why are you killing me?' Now, conscience of mine, it is clear before G!d and man.' It is written in the Bible, 'Christ- the Christ lives in me.' And it written in the Bible. What? Paul was preaching to people who heard him, but they began leaving After hearing him say. What? You hear always but do not understand

Routine that is awkward and painful is no longer music to my ears / Often, people don't always take care of themselves / Why don't they love themselves / Birds came in, red / and purple too / That's what they turned my skin into / Ain't that a sharp pain there / Oh, why do they hurt me so / My kiss to them / Lets my blood out / They continue chirping / Perhaps this is the time / to say it's- / o / it's not okay / why do my tears flow / oh, joy / ow / it's time to die, the birds say / death-songs come softly / please forgive them, Heavenly Compassionate Father / Boom