So that my Father who is unseen before those of the world - my only Father - may be glorified. The Merciful - Most Merciful - and Compassionate One, the Accepting of repentance.
And so that the commandments may be obeyed by a lowly heart and poor spirit such as myself:


And especially to my enemies who hath tormented me, (Man's ways all seem innocent to Him, but the LORD weighs each motive) so that they may have the comfort of knowing they are not alone in their emotional upheavals, if G!D accepts their repentance and reconciliation to G!D - for G!D knows and I do not know who or where or how or what G!D chooses to pour breathe His Spirit into.
And as an advance: worship me not - do not worship me. I am a servant of G!D, just like you. Worship G!D. I am nothing without the Anointed One, Jesus, who calls himself the Son of Man, as the branch is nothing without the vine - or, as the leaf is nothing without the tree.

it is the seventeenth day of the third month of the 105th year since a nation was publicly recognised
It's the twenty-third day of my challenge to eat vegetarian for forty days.
I went to a gathering where people talked about Christianity. At the end, I wondered, aloud, what kind of person G!D is. I said in the group discussion that I can't open my heart easily to Him, and told those people in the small group that I am of the kind who are more suspicious. Afterwards, a woman person in the group came up to me and said that she sensed yearning and a lot of resistance in me. She also showed me a quote by Joseph Campbell, which went: 'the greatest treasures are in the caves that you fear most to tread'. She asked me how I was feeling. I told her I felt thankful for the opportunity for discussion. I don't think that covered the depth of my feelings. I am angry. I feel anger towards G!D. Where was He when I was hurt, upset or forced to do things [under oppression]? How can the people at the discussion talk about G!D's plan for me, when He feels distant? I feel naked. I feel like the outcast of the group in a reality show [on television], unable and unwilling to join the group in their comfort, solidarity, trust and security in the group. I feel left out. I feel lonely. Most of all, I feel afraid. I feel afraid to trust again in someone, something or G!D himself. I feel very vulnerable. I went to a psychiatric mental-health institution to seek help, attention and resolution. I expected liberty, but I experienced coercion and oppression [even when I was finite in resources and energy, that is, more precisely, needy, as in one of the needy or poor]. I learnt that I could not leave the ward at Acme Institute, even if I wanted. [the name of the institute is masked, or anonymised - Jesus said: 'Be merciful, as your Master, who bought you for a price, is merciful]. I learnt that the doctor, people who spent time with me previously (who said, "I am your father" and "I am your mother"), and the social worker decided where and when I would stay and/or leave the ward [in the sense that their approval, or authorisation, or their company, was required, for those to happen, as I had observed]. I was pressured into taking medication by nurses, despite my wishes to not consume them; I was threatened with an indefinite incarceration in the hospital. although i wanted to leave, I could not. how can people say G!D has s plan for me when G!D feels so far away as I went through that? from the writer: as the Quran says, even the prophets and the fellow who were with them, cried out, 'our Lord 1 where are you / verily, verily, the mercy of g1d is near 1' Can somebody tell me that was G1D's plan for me sure? the remark that gave me the greatest emotional impact was that G!D loved me unconditionally. It felt like a hand from the writer: 'wipe the tears from your eyes. be dismayed no more. For I, the LORD G!D, have struck you in anger, for your sins were flagrant, but you- you- I will have compassion on you. You belong to Me, O Israel, though I have scattered you into distant lands and nations, and you were stricken. You belong to Me, and you will be with Me for-ever.

Praise be to G!D. I praise You, for You have shown lovingkindness, even to a poor spirit, a lowly heart, a wretch like myself.
Burst into song, mountains!
Tap-dance, trees!
Glow and flare, o stars!
For the LORD G!D hath redeemed for Himself a daughter, a son, a nation, a city!'

(what? would you rather G!D take angels for daughters, and cherubims for sons?)

Praise be to G!D (thank you, Daddy)
Wipe your tears from your eyes. Do not be dismayed.
Gardens of bliss, under which rivers flow, spouses delighting in each other, the objective of life, the felicity most high, absolute beauty, supreme over all other felicity, for the good pleasure of G!D, the Cherisher and Sustainer of the Worlds.
Thou art my shepherd; I shall not want.
I know no other Rock. There is none like You. I know no other Stone. I know no other G!D.
Blessed is He who hath given rest to His people. May all nations come to know that our Lord is G!D, and that there is no other G!D other than He, and that G!D is our G!D. To G!D be to the glory for-ever and ever. Amen. (so it is).
It felt like a hand, gently being placed against my heart. It felt like a piece of cloth being thrown against my face. 'You don't have to earn that love,' that person said. What if that was true? How can I trust G!D not to hurt me? How can I trust G!D to not leave me on my own? How can someone say, 'If you believe in G!D, you will go through suffering' so matter-of-factly? I don't want. Why does G!D make me suffer? If He is there, why does G!D allow people to suffer? Very briefly, I also wonder how we can end suffering, G!D or not. G!D. what will You do with me if I open my heart to you? Who gave me food, shelter and clothes when I was looking for them? from the writer: 'I, the LORD G!D, have forgotten your sins, and remember them no more. as I said in the days of Noah after the flood, I will not again cause another world-destroying flood.'
"I promise I will never stop doing good to her, and remind her to fear me, and keep my commandment," saith G!D, the Lord of lords, and King of kings.
(O LORD, our Father, you are the potter, we are the clay; we are all the work of Your hands)
I will never tire of praising G!D
I praise You, oh LORD, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful; that I know full well.

[Who gave me food, shelter and clothes when I was looking for them?] I needed those. Is it G!D? Is G!D there? What does G!D do to people? I felt resentful towards G!D; I'm not sure if I still do. from the writer: the end of a thing is as powerful as its beginning. and the patient in spirit is superior to the proud in spirit. (as written in Scripture)
I love you, G!D.
G!D hath no begotten son, and has no beings attached. (as written in Scripture that some call "Quran") I