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So that my Father who is unseen before those of the world - my only Father - may be glorified. The
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Merciful - Most Merciful - and Compassionate One, the Accepting of repentance.
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And so that the commandments may be obeyed by a lowly heart and poor spirit such as myself:
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<li>Love G!D with all your heart, soul, spirit, body, mind and psychic power and unknown powers
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and any other powers you may have, and all your eyes - seen and unseen. This is the foundation of
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the Law and the prophets - the first and most important and greatest commandment.
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</li>
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<li>
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Love thy neighbour as yourself. This, the second commandment, is like it (the first commandment). :-)
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<li>
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To the disciples of the Anointed One, who calls himself the Son of Man: 'this is a new commandment I give to you.
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Love one another as I have loved you. By this, the world will know that you are my disciples, when you love
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one another as I have loved you. (the 'I am', who have
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spake unto you -
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you who argued, among the numbers of you,
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about who the greatest
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among you is - and who have saith to you
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that the greatest among you will serve you).'
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</li>
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</ul>
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<br/>
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And especially to my enemies who hath tormented me, (Man's ways all seem innocent to Him, but the LORD weighs each motive)
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so that they may have the comfort of knowing they are not alone in their emotional upheavals, if G!D accepts their repentance
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and reconciliation to G!D - for G!D knows and I do not know who or where or how or what G!D chooses to <strike>pour</strike>
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breathe
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His Spirit into. <br/>
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And as an advance: worship me not - do not worship me. I am a servant of G!D, just like you. Worship G!D. I am nothing without
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the Anointed One, Jesus, who calls himself the Son of Man, as the branch is nothing without the vine - or, as the leaf is nothing
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without the tree.
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Entries:
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<li>it is the seventeenth day of the third month of the 105th year since a nation was publicly recognised</li>
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<li>t is the fifteenth day of the second month of the 105th year since a worldly nation
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was publicly recognised.</li>
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<li>It is the 27th day of the first month of the 105th year since people found a nation
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that they had been searching for.</li>
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<li>
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It is the seventeenth day of the sixth month of the 106th year since
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G!D gave people the comfort of a nation to call their own, regardless
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of whether they honour G!D or not, or whether they seek Him, or
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seek to know Him, or not.</li>
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<li>
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It is the eleventh day of the second month of the 105th year
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since Man built a city with G!D’s help and provisions
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</li>
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<li>It is an hour that G!D knows, and I do not know.
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Yes, G!D knows, and I do not know.
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</li>
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<li>It is the thirtieth day of the tenth month of the 105th year since aliens
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were freed from oppression in a land that produces green grapes, with the help
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of G!D
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</li>
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<li>'Tis the ninth day of the eleventh month of the 2016th year since
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everybody thought an image - an image that they have of a messenger of G!D
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- died,
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in the way they think death happens.</li>
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<li>Unknown record</li>
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</ul>
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</p>
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it is the seventeenth day of the third month of the 105th year since a nation was publicly recognised<br/>
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It's the twenty-third day of my challenge to eat vegetarian for forty days.
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<br />
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I went to a gathering where people talked about Christianity. At the end, I wondered, aloud, what kind of person
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G!D is. I said in the group discussion that I can't open my heart easily to Him, and told those people in the small group
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that I am of the kind who are more suspicious. Afterwards, a <strike>woman</strike> person in the group came up to me
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and said that she sensed yearning and a lot of resistance in me. She also showed me a quote by Joseph Campbell, which
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went: 'the greatest treasures are in the caves that you fear most to tread'. She asked me how I was feeling. I told her
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I felt thankful for the opportunity for discussion. I don't think that covered the depth of my feelings.
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I am angry. I feel anger towards G!D. Where was He when I was hurt, upset or forced to do things [under oppression]?
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How can the people at the discussion talk about G!D's plan for me, when He feels distant?
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I feel naked. I feel like the outcast of the group in a reality show [on television], unable and unwilling to join the
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group in their comfort, solidarity, trust and security in the group. I feel left out. I feel lonely. Most of all, I
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feel afraid. I feel afraid to trust again in someone, something or G!D himself. I feel very vulnerable.
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I went to a <strike>psychiatric</strike> mental-health institution to seek help, attention and resolution. I expected
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liberty, but I experienced coercion and oppression [even when I was finite in resources and energy, that is,
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more precisely, needy, as in one of the needy or poor]. I learnt that I could not leave the ward at Acme Institute,
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even if I wanted. [the name of the institute is masked, or anonymised - Jesus said: 'Be merciful, as your Master, who bought you for a price,
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is merciful]. I learnt that the doctor, people who spent time with me previously (who said, "I am your father" and
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"I am your mother"), and the social worker decided where and when I would stay and/or leave the ward [in the sense that
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their approval, or authorisation, or their company, was required, for those to happen, as I had observed]. I was
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pressured into taking <strike>medication</strike> by nurses, despite my
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wishes to not consume them;
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I was threatened with an indefinite incarceration in the hospital.
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although i wanted to leave, I could not. how can people
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say G!D has s plan for me when G!D feels so
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far away as I went through that?
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<i>from the writer: as the Quran says, even the prophets
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and the fellow who were with them, cried out,
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'our Lord 1 where are you / verily, verily, the mercy of g1d is near 1'
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</i>
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Can somebody tell me that was G1D's plan for <strike>me
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</strike>
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sure?
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the remark that gave me the greatest emotional impact
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was that G!D loved me unconditionally.
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<strike>
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It felt like a hand
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</strike>
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<i>from the writer: 'wipe the tears from your eyes. be dismayed
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no more. For I, the LORD G!D, have struck
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you in anger, for your sins were flagrant,
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but you- you- I will have compassion
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on you. You belong to Me, O Israel,
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though I have scattered you into
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distant lands and nations, and you
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were stricken. You belong to Me,
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and you will be with Me for-ever. <br/><br/>
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Praise be to G!D. I praise You,
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for You have shown lovingkindness,
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even to a poor spirit, a lowly heart,
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a wretch like myself.
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<br/>
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Burst into song, mountains! <br/>
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Tap-dance, trees! <br/>
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Glow and flare, o stars! <br/>
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For the LORD G!D hath redeemed for Himself
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a daughter, a son, a nation, a city!' <br/><br/>
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(what? would you rather G!D take angels for
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daughters, and cherubims for sons?)<br/><br/>
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Praise be to G!D (thank you, Daddy)
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<br/>
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Wipe your tears from your eyes.
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Do not be dismayed. <br/>
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Gardens of bliss, under which rivers
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flow, spouses delighting in each other,
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the objective of life, the felicity most high,
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absolute beauty, supreme over all other felicity,
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for the good pleasure of G!D, the Cherisher
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and Sustainer of the Worlds. <br/>
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Thou art my shepherd;
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I shall not want. <br/>
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I know no other Rock.
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There is none like You.
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I know no other Stone.
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I know no other G!D. <br/>
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Blessed is He who hath given rest to His
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people. May all nations come to know
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that our Lord is G!D, and that there
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is no other G!D other than He, and that
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G!D is our G!D. To G!D be to the glory
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for-ever and ever. Amen. (so it is). <br/>
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<strike>It felt like a hand, gently being placed against my
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heart.</strike>
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It felt like a piece of cloth being thrown against
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my face. 'You don't have to earn that love,' that person
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said. What if that was true? How can I trust G!D
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not to hurt me? How can I trust G!D to not leave
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me on my own? How can someone say, 'If you believe in
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G!D, you will go through suffering' so matter-of-factly?
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I don't want.
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Why does G!D make me suffer? If He is there, why does
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G!D allow people to suffer? Very briefly, I also
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wonder how we can end suffering, G!D or not.
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G!D. what will You do with me if I open my heart
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to you?
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Who gave me food, shelter and clothes when I was
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looking for them?
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<i>
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from the writer: 'I, the LORD G!D, have forgotten
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your sins, and remember them no more.
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as I said in the days of Noah after
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the flood, I will not again cause
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another world-destroying flood.' <br/>
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"I promise
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I will never stop doing good to her, and remind
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her to fear me, and keep my commandment," saith
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G!D, the Lord of lords, and King of kings.
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<br/>
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(O LORD, our Father, you are the potter, we
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are the clay; we are all the work of Your hands)
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<br/>
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I will never tire of praising G!D<br/>
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I praise You, oh LORD, for I am fearfully
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and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful;
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that I know full well.
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<br/>
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[Who gave me food, shelter and clothes when I was
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looking for them?]
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I needed those. Is it G!D? Is G!D there?
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What does G!D do to people? I felt resentful towards G!D;
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I'm not sure if I still do.
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<i>from the writer: the end of a thing is as powerful
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as its beginning. and the patient in spirit is superior
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to the proud in spirit. (as written in Scripture)
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<br/> I love you, G!D.<br/>
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G!D hath no begotten son,
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and has no beings attached. (as written in Scripture
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that some call "Quran")
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I
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tis to glorify the Compassionate and Most Merciful One, who is Sovereign over the Here-after,
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Lord of lords, King of kings, Creator of creators, redeemer of worms, husband to prostitutes with
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poor spirit and lowly heart, the Accepting of the repentance of wicked, ungrateful thieves
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and theivesses, the Most
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Accepting of repentance.<br/>
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Inspiration is verse in the Bible: 'Just as Jonah spent three days and nights in belly of fish,
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so, too, will the Son of Man spend three days in <strike>belly</strike> of earth'. <br />
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With G!D's help, if G!D is willing, one will help the other through a trial <strike>
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from</strike>
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that
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G!D
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causes. To trade stories, if you will. 'For I am strong when I am weak', as written in Scripture,
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'even though I am nothing at all [without the Anointed One,
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through whom I can do all things], and
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so, am made to be like a fool by you -
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you have made me to be like a fool - boasting
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like this, even though I am nothing at all.
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I do not count myself among the most
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eminent apostles, or the so-called super-apostles or uber-apostles. Still, I ought
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to be receiving commendations from you lot. For we of the spirit of G!D
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walk in each other's shoes, along the same path, and there
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is no male or female, Jew or Gentile,
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outsider or insider - all are one
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through the Anointed One who calls himself Son of Man, Jesus,
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son of Mary, who conceived with the help of G!D when no man has
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laid a hand or rod on her. This is to build you up.' <br/>
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As a verse in
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Bible goes (yes, another Bible verse :-D ), (so grateful for Scripture), 'two is better
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than one. if one falls down, the other can help the one up. if there is only one going at
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it, that one has calamity upon them... him... her...'
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It is the fifteenth day of the second month of the 105th year since a worldly nation
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was publicly recognised. ('For everything of the world passes away, and is passing
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away,' as Scripture has on record.)
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<br/>
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I'm frustrated at my Heavenly Father's presence,
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whenever I think about a mother-figure. It seems that He will not
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cease or stop whatever He is doing to remind me of Him when I think
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about creating a mother-figure that I have lost. <br/><br/>
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I feel grief at such a time - why? G!D, what is the message
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behind these feelings of loss and anxiety? <br/><br/>
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I recall the octopus that I coloured rainbow, when
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I was in kindergarten [before the age of seven, as the layman
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knows it]. I felt hurt and unhappy that I had to colour it another
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colour for [the] grades. I feel frustrated and boxed in.
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I feel [like] that [feeling of] a square peg in a round
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hole. I feel furious!
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Like Father G!D [who is in Heaven and unseen and has no beings attached],
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I created. That was an octopus
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that could only be found in the rainbow
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that formed from the dew-drops in a magical forest.
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It was an octopus that you had to call into existence,
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and to transfer to a water body large enough to contain
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it. It was killed by the teacher, who was an alien in
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disguise[,] and disliked magical beings.
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No matter how much I create, I won't be able to create a
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mother-figure <br/><br/>
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<i>from the writer: As written in Scripture, 'a wise son brings
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joy to his Father; a foolish son brings grief to his mother.'</i>
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Oh G!D, I am grieving. No matter how much magic I do, I won't be
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able to get the same mother-figure, nor the memories of the times
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with her. I lost someone who could have made great memories with me
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as her son. She won't get any more memories with me.
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from the writer: 'I despise all those who cling on to worthless idols
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or carven images, or images of G!D, who has no beings attached.
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All those who would speak up for worthless idols are foolish fools.'
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All these can be found in Scripture, which implies you have
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to take up a quest to search, if you will, and if G!D is willing.
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'I have observed an abhor-able, horrible thing in Ephraim and Israel:
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my people prostituting themselves to other gods!' The LORD G!D says.
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I thank G!D who hath counted me among ministry, and enabled me to me
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among the faithful.
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<br/><br/>
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I praise You, G!D, for you have shown lovingkindness. I will tell the
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world about your wonderful deeds in my life, You who
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grant even passage of boats across oceans and unknown waters,
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and brings wealth from the sea, houses I did not build,
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rocks that I did not create, life I did not call into being,
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fruits I did not sow the seeds of, and even divine reconciliation
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to G!D and godliness, a peace that the world does not give,
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and a redemption and promise and eternity that the world cannot
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give - does not give - and You are sure to keep Your promises, O
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G!D of Truth and truth and Ruth and Naomi, who asked to be
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named Mara, which means 'bitter', for she was embittered, even
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though her name, 'Naomi', meant 'pleasant'.
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</i>
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<br/><br/>
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It seems as if G!D wants me to go to Him as He creates, not stay on my side,
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looking for Mother.
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<br/><br/>
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<i>from the writer: oh, how horrible - looking for Mother, so-called mother.
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</i>
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<br/><br/>
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Whenever the mother-figure came into my life, she is dead now. I have hardly
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any memories of her; the feeling remains in me.
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<br/><br/>
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<i>
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From the writer: No longer. Rejoice in the LORD. I say again, rejoice!
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|
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You were bought with a price. Remember G!D's terrors, signs and wonders
|
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that He hath rehearsed to you. Everybody has heard about your obedience,
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and I rejoice. As the Son of Man said, 'Blessed are you who
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are mourning, for you will be comforted.'
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<br/><br/>
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As Scriptures have on record: 'little ones, continue doing what
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you are doing. Your Father approves.' <br/><br/>
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<br/><br/>
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On a related note, since came to Mind, people asked or told Jesus,
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who was teaching in a synagogue: 'Your mother and brothers and sisters
|
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|
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are outside the city gates, waiting for you.' Jesus said,
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'my brothers and sisters and mother are those who obey G!D,
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and keep His commandments, and obey them.' This is in Scripture, too.
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<br/><br/>
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On yet another related note, a famous Zen saying goes,
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'When you see the Buddha, kill him! When you see your parents, kill them!'
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As fierce as that may 'sound', G!D will show you Truth and truth, if He is willing,
|
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|
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and if you try your best (with all you have: your time and energy and
|
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|
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resources) to seek Him. For as Scriptures say: 'Seek ye G!D with all your
|
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|
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heart, and ye shall find Me'. And as the Son of Man said
|
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|
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to those who said to those who cried to him - 'We want to enter
|
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|
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the kingdom of G!D, too! We want to enter into Paradise! How should we
|
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|
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do it?' - 'the road to the kingdom of G!D is a narrow one. But try your best.'
|
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|
|
<br/><br/>
|
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|
|
On yet another related note, the Buddha was asked which was more
|
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|
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important: wisdom or compassion (something like lovingkindness). The Buddha
|
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|
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answered: 'Effort. Effort is most important'.
|
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|
|
<br/><br/>
|
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|
|
'Brothers and sisters, I do not think I have made it my own. One thing I do:
|
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|
|
forgetting what lies behind, and pushing on-ward, for the upward call of G!D
|
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|
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through the Anointed One, Jesus, through whom I am crucified unto the world,
|
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|
|
and the world unto me.' This is in Scripture, too.
|
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|
|
</i>
|
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|
|
<br/><br/>
|
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|
|
There is no one woman who is Her, or can compare to Her.
|
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|
|
<br/><br/>
|
|||
|
|
<i>From the writer: oh, how disgusting. Kimochi warui, a Japanese expression
|
|||
|
|
or pronunciation goes. Feeling a sense of despise.
|
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|
|
<br/><br/>
|
|||
|
|
On a related note, 'Kimochi warui' is the last line in the ending scene
|
|||
|
|
of a movie in the animated story, 'Neon Genesis Evangelion', which is
|
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|
|
described as 'anime (or animated stories) for adults'. The ending scene
|
|||
|
|
featured a cross that evokes a remembrance of the crucifixion of
|
|||
|
|
a famous figure. A sacrifice, scary in nature or feel, if you watch
|
|||
|
|
the scene, of the protagonist, who is somehow in a robot that
|
|||
|
|
seems to be- well, G!D knows, and I do not know. For these are worldly
|
|||
|
|
things, yet the series is popularly posited to be subtly
|
|||
|
|
touching on themes of psychology, if you believe the rumor that goes around,
|
|||
|
|
and yet Bible - Scriptures - express concern that 'I will not like
|
|||
|
|
what I see in you when I come to you, and you will not like
|
|||
|
|
what you see in me. What I will not like to see in you:
|
|||
|
|
deceitfulness, divisions, jealousies, gossip and gossips, slander,
|
|||
|
|
arrogance against godliness, and delight in wickedness.'
|
|||
|
|
So, on that note, praise be to G!D, who is true, and keeps promises
|
|||
|
|
that He makes - I prayed to G!D, the Blessed Father, Ruler of the Universe,
|
|||
|
|
who causes boats to have integrity throughout journeys and pilgrimages
|
|||
|
|
across waters, Hallowed Name, and The Almighty One, who is All-knowing,
|
|||
|
|
All-hearing, All-seeing, heard me and listened. I prayed to Him
|
|||
|
|
to remind me to fear Him always, 'for fear of G!D is the beginning
|
|||
|
|
of wisdom, but fools despise wisdom and instruction, or Guidance', as Scriptures
|
|||
|
|
have on record, and He answered my prayer.
|
|||
|
|
<br/><br/>
|
|||
|
|
On a related note, the ending of the popular anime, or animated story,
|
|||
|
|
Full Metal Alchemist, featured a sacrifice of the protagonist, that is
|
|||
|
|
strikingly resonant with the death and resurrection of the dead
|
|||
|
|
that Scriptures have on record: 'unless it is what I have spoken: that
|
|||
|
|
I have hope of the resurrection of the dead'.
|
|||
|
|
<br/><br/>
|
|||
|
|
Glory be to G!D in the Highest, and peace be upon those whom G!D favours.
|
|||
|
|
Now, may the love of G!D, and the fellowship of those who are in the
|
|||
|
|
Spirit of G!D, and the grace of the Anointed One whom we call Teacher
|
|||
|
|
and Lord, who calls himself 'Son of Man', be with you all.
|
|||
|
|
(and so it is).
|
|||
|
|
Amen.
|
|||
|
|
</i>
|
|||
|
|
</p>
|
|||
|
|
<p>
|
|||
|
|
It is the 27th day of the first month of the 105th year since people found a nation
|
|||
|
|
that they had been searching for. <br/><br/>
|
|||
|
|
I browsed through a
|
|||
|
|
<a href="http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/5523892-jesus">book</a>
|
|||
|
|
[that is] titled 'Jesus', [and] written by Chopra D.
|
|||
|
|
<br/><br/>
|
|||
|
|
<i>from the writer: as written in the Quran, 'Enjoin what is right, avert Evil for Good
|
|||
|
|
(as Scriptures have on record: 'I want you to be wise about what
|
|||
|
|
is good, and innocent about what is evil')
|
|||
|
|
and do righteousness (righteousness? turning
|
|||
|
|
to the East or to the West is not righteousness. Obeying
|
|||
|
|
G!D, and believing in the one that G!D sends (has sent... is sending...
|
|||
|
|
has been sending... will send... on all of these things - G!D knows
|
|||
|
|
and I know not :-) ), and obeying G!D's commandments, and keeping
|
|||
|
|
them - those are righteousness, as written in the Quran).
|
|||
|
|
<br/><br/>
|
|||
|
|
Another book comes to mind:
|
|||
|
|
<a href="https://www.amazon.com/13th-Disciple-Spiritual-Adventure/dp/0062241427">'The thirteenth disciple'
|
|||
|
|
</a>
|
|||
|
|
or something
|
|||
|
|
like that, from that same G!D-knows-what-he-she-they-is-and-I-know-not.
|
|||
|
|
</i>
|
|||
|
|
<br/><br/>
|
|||
|
|
I did that on the Internet. Chopra advises the reader to embrace
|
|||
|
|
optimism optimism as a way to focus on G!D and good things,
|
|||
|
|
to journey inward towards G!D. In the spirit of [G!D] and that
|
|||
|
|
advice [which G!D hath enabled me to received - how blessed He
|
|||
|
|
is! Glory be to G!D in the highest!],
|
|||
|
|
I list the things which G!D [hath] gave[n] me, with gratitude:
|
|||
|
|
</br></br>
|
|||
|
|
Bingxiong's list of gifts from G!D, in His grace (which of course
|
|||
|
|
is boundless. Still, attempt, yes. Effort. Striving. A pregnant word, some
|
|||
|
|
say, 'striving'.)
|
|||
|
|
<ul>
|
|||
|
|
<li>Woman and music
|
|||
|
|
</li>
|
|||
|
|
<li>Woman and potential to leave a legacy
|
|||
|
|
through fatherhood</li>
|
|||
|
|
<li>Woman and intellectual stimulation and discussion</li>
|
|||
|
|
<li>Woman and and poetry [haiku comes to mind]
|
|||
|
|
|
|||
|
|
<br/><br/>
|
|||
|
|
<i>from the writer: As Scripture has on record, 'At
|
|||
|
|
a time of day or night - G!D knows, and I know not.
|
|||
|
|
yes, G!D knows, and I know not whether it was
|
|||
|
|
day or night - before that hour of morning,
|
|||
|
|
when one could tell one from the other, came,
|
|||
|
|
man and woman, who were with each other,
|
|||
|
|
separated and went their own ways
|
|||
|
|
</i>
|
|||
|
|
</li>
|
|||
|
|
<li>Woman and wisdom
|
|||
|
|
</li>
|
|||
|
|
<li>Woman and technology
|
|||
|
|
</li>
|
|||
|
|
<li>Woman and community
|
|||
|
|
</li>
|
|||
|
|
|
|||
|
|
</ul>
|
|||
|
|
I was angry with G!D. I felt disappointed
|
|||
|
|
|
|||
|
|
<i>from the writer: Praise be to G!D. I praise You,
|
|||
|
|
because you have shown lovingkindness. As Scriptures
|
|||
|
|
have on record, 'Your Father knows
|
|||
|
|
what you want before you even ask for it.'
|
|||
|
|
</i>
|
|||
|
|
I felt disappointment and pain[,] when memories began
|
|||
|
|
to surface from where they were locked away, such as the passing
|
|||
|
|
away of my [']paternal grand-mother and grand-father['] [who gave care
|
|||
|
|
to me, at G!D-knows-where-and-when-and-I-do-not point of my
|
|||
|
|
life].
|
|||
|
|
<i>from the writer: forgot. forgot. have forgotten. praise be
|
|||
|
|
to G!D, who keeps His word in truth, and rejoices when others rejoice.
|
|||
|
|
</i>
|
|||
|
|
</p>
|
|||
|
|
|
|||
|
|
<p>
|
|||
|
|
It is the seventeenth day of the sixth month of the 106th year since
|
|||
|
|
G!D gave people the comfort of a nation to call their own, regardless
|
|||
|
|
of whether they honour G!D or not, or whether they seek Him, or
|
|||
|
|
seek to know Him, or not. <br/><br/>
|
|||
|
|
Blessed is He who have enabled me to be literate in reading,
|
|||
|
|
computing, computer operation. Who? He who hath
|
|||
|
|
enabled me to be among the Believers - even me,
|
|||
|
|
a worm and little one such as myself,
|
|||
|
|
who stole food from shared fridges during a difficult time,
|
|||
|
|
despite an obvious argument for the case that 'Food theft
|
|||
|
|
is a crime' that G!D hath brought me to read at that time.
|
|||
|
|
What looked like a construction to ward away thieves. And
|
|||
|
|
which thief or theivess is more wicked and ungrateful than
|
|||
|
|
myself? Electronic letters subsequently promised expulsion
|
|||
|
|
from the residence that I was at, or
|
|||
|
|
'demerit points' (which indicates how close you are from
|
|||
|
|
expulsion), if the person who executed the theft was found.
|
|||
|
|
A thing, that looked like a glass ball that was chopped in half
|
|||
|
|
and had its guts glued onto the ceiling of the kitchen that
|
|||
|
|
the shared fridge was in, did not and had not deterred me from
|
|||
|
|
stealing. <br/>
|
|||
|
|
I was hungry, and there was food. And, thought I to myself,
|
|||
|
|
'who is there to catch me?' And it was thrilling to see who
|
|||
|
|
could catch me while I was pinching bits of pastry away from
|
|||
|
|
bags that I did not put into the (shared) fridge. <br/>
|
|||
|
|
And yet G!D hath seen it fit to keep my very soul under His
|
|||
|
|
care - and watch - so that a wicked theivess as despicable as
|
|||
|
|
myself may operate a computer to <strike>tell</strike>
|
|||
|
|
speak of His deeds in my life.
|
|||
|
|
For as Scripture says, 'Thou shalt not steal.' Yet G!D has
|
|||
|
|
seen it fit to keep me in His mercy instead of calling
|
|||
|
|
fire down from Heaven upon me at the moment of my theft, or
|
|||
|
|
causing the earth to open up and swallow me whole.
|
|||
|
|
(And He even summoned bits of my soul that I thought I had
|
|||
|
|
lost).
|
|||
|
|
And Scripture comes to mind: 'You were bought with a price'.
|
|||
|
|
So it seems fitting to sum up with a verse from the Bible that is
|
|||
|
|
related to the Anointed One, who died to pay for the wrongdoings
|
|||
|
|
of many against godliness and their very souls themselves.
|
|||
|
|
'The commandments "Do not commit adultery," "Do not murder,"
|
|||
|
|
"Do not steal," "Do not covet," and any other commandments,
|
|||
|
|
are summed up in this one decree: "Love your neighbor as yourself."
|
|||
|
|
<a href="http://biblehub.com/romans/13-9.htm">
|
|||
|
|
(Romans 13:9)
|
|||
|
|
</a> <br/>
|
|||
|
|
And at this point, G!D hath seen fit to remind or bring me
|
|||
|
|
to another verse:
|
|||
|
|
'Be indebted to no one, except to one another in love,
|
|||
|
|
for he who loves his neighbor has fulfilled the Law.' (Romans 13:8).
|
|||
|
|
<br/>
|
|||
|
|
So, if G!D is willing, I will offer - to <strike>sender of the electronic
|
|||
|
|
e-mail</strike>
|
|||
|
|
fellow creations of G!D who
|
|||
|
|
were associated to the shared fridge that
|
|||
|
|
I have stolen from - whatever that G!D hath brought into my life, and given me
|
|||
|
|
freely. For as Scripture records, "'Freely you have received,' Jesus said.
|
|||
|
|
Now, freely give."
|
|||
|
|
(the
|
|||
|
|
Anointed One called himself Son of Man, but Joseph named the
|
|||
|
|
Anointed One 'Jesus' upon the visit of an angel of G!D, who
|
|||
|
|
gave him instructions on what to name the new-born. And Joseph obeyed G!D.)
|
|||
|
|
So, with gladness and merriment will I contact whoever G!D brings me to, who
|
|||
|
|
are associated to that shared fridge, and give with as good a measure
|
|||
|
|
as G!D hath used in His gifts and mercy that He hath laid upon me. <br/>
|
|||
|
|
And indeed G!D hath given me a <strike>warning</strike>
|
|||
|
|
yoke when he revealed the following
|
|||
|
|
verses to me: 'He who has received much, much will be asked of him.'
|
|||
|
|
Further, He hath warned me about the hearts and minds of men:
|
|||
|
|
'Not many of you should become teachers, for we are judged more strictly
|
|||
|
|
than others. And we indeed make many mistakes. If a man has no fault,
|
|||
|
|
he would be a perfect man, in perfect control of his body, able to control
|
|||
|
|
his body in every way.'
|
|||
|
|
<a href="http://biblehub.com/bsb/james/3.htm">
|
|||
|
|
(James 3:1-2)
|
|||
|
|
</a>
|
|||
|
|
</p>
|
|||
|
|
<p>
|
|||
|
|
'Which is a more difficult creation? You or the Heavens?' (from the Quran)
|
|||
|
|
<br/><br/>
|
|||
|
|
Praise be to the Most Merciful One, who is Oft-forgiving, and
|
|||
|
|
the Accepting of repentance, and Compassionate <br/><br/>
|
|||
|
|
It is the eleventh day of the second month of the 105th year
|
|||
|
|
since Man built a city with G!D's help and provisions
|
|||
|
|
<br/>
|
|||
|
|
I went to a gathering of people today,
|
|||
|
|
where people talked about hearing voices,
|
|||
|
|
and their experiences. J, whom I met at the
|
|||
|
|
meet-up, said that the people
|
|||
|
|
were sharing personal experiences,
|
|||
|
|
not giving advice,
|
|||
|
|
and that was a plus. <br/><br/>
|
|||
|
|
A [']Japanese woman['] talked about her
|
|||
|
|
experience of sexual abuse by her father,
|
|||
|
|
and her perspective on it: that it was
|
|||
|
|
a dark side of her life which she accepted
|
|||
|
|
as a whole, together with the 'light'.
|
|||
|
|
<br/><br/>
|
|||
|
|
<i>Writer's note: she also shared that her marriage
|
|||
|
|
had... problems. Well, G!D knows truth, and I do not
|
|||
|
|
claim to be G!D
|
|||
|
|
</i>
|
|||
|
|
<br/><br/>
|
|||
|
|
I was surprised to discover that her story resonated with me. What
|
|||
|
|
happened sexually [or spiritually] between my [']father['] and I,
|
|||
|
|
when I was a [younger] child? If something did happen, where is my
|
|||
|
|
focus - is it on blaming my [']father['], or on reflecting on
|
|||
|
|
what is inside me<strike>,</strike> that is causing such an
|
|||
|
|
incident to be mirrored in the outside reality?
|
|||
|
|
<br/><br/>
|
|||
|
|
My body and feelings seem to remember, even though I do not.
|
|||
|
|
<br/><br/>
|
|||
|
|
I want the truth. Could it be that I could not bear it now?
|
|||
|
|
<br/><br/>
|
|||
|
|
I feel discarded, like I was a dirty piece or towel. I feel
|
|||
|
|
jealous that my [']father['] is spending time with my [']brother['].
|
|||
|
|
<br/><br/>
|
|||
|
|
<i>from the writer: Jesus said, 'You are the salt of the earth. But if salt
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loses its saltiness, who can make it salty again? It is no
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longer good for anything, except to be thrown away, or trampled upon.
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<br/><br/>
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Jesus (who called himself the Son of Man) said, 'I am the Life, the Truth
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and the Way.'
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<br/><br/>
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Jesus said to a man, 'Come, please follow me.'
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</i>
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I remember that these feelings
|
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<br/><br/><i>Jesus said, 'Can a blind man lead another blind man? Would
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they not soon fall into a ditch?'
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</i>
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<br/><br/>
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I remember that these feelings are a shadow of a concrete event
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from my past, and that there is a message or lesson to be learnt,
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that is beneath these feelings.
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<br/><br/>
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Oh, Father G!D, Abba, lift these feelings so that I can learn
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and <strike>learn</strike> and hear and listen! In the name of
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|
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Christ Jesus, I ask this. <br/><br/>
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How do I view my [']father[']? What aspects of him do I not like,
|
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and what do those reflect of myself? What I dislike about
|
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|
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him can be found within me. He was ignorant. He is unsensitive,
|
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|
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cowardly, indecisive, spineless, dull, quick-tempered, slow,
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boring and controlling. What does that say about me?
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<br/><br/>
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<i>from the writer: Jesus, the Anointed One, died to reconcile
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many to G!D, in one eternal sacrifice. One sacrifice for
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all eternity, in other words. (and it is divine in nature,
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a sacrifice the world cannot give.)<br/><br/>
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As Scriptures say, 'All kinds of animals, birds, reptiles, and creatures
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of the sea are being tamed and have been tamed by man, but no man can
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tame the tongue. It is an unruly evil, full of deadly poison.
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With the tongue we bless our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men,
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who have been made in God’s likeness.
|
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|
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Out of the same mouth come blessing and cursing.
|
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|
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My brothers, this should not be!
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Can both fresh water and bitter water flow from the same spring?
|
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|
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My brothers, can a fig tree grow olives, or a grapevine bear figs?
|
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|
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Neither can a salt spring produce fresh water. [on the Wisdom from Above]
|
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|
|
Who is wise and understanding among you?
|
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|
|
Let him show it by his good conduct, by deeds done in the humility
|
|||
|
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that comes from wisdom. But if you have bitter jealousy
|
|||
|
|
and selfish ambition in your hearts,
|
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|
|
do not boast in it or deny the truth.
|
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|
|
Such wisdom does not come from above, but is earthly,
|
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|
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unspiritual, demonic. For where jealousy and selfish ambition
|
|||
|
|
exist, there will be disorder and every evil practice.
|
|||
|
|
But the wisdom from above is first of all pure,
|
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|
|
then peace[-]able, gentle, accommodating, full of mercy and
|
|||
|
|
good fruit, impartial, and sincere. Peacemakers who sow in
|
|||
|
|
peace reap the fruit of righteousness.
|
|||
|
|
<a href="http://biblehub.com/bsb/james/3.htm">
|
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|
|
(James 3:7-18, BSB)
|
|||
|
|
</a>
|
|||
|
|
</i>
|
|||
|
|
What kind of hurt or trauma or woundedness did I have, in the past,
|
|||
|
|
that is lying stagnant now?
|
|||
|
|
</p>
|
|||
|
|
<p>
|
|||
|
|
'Do not kill your children for fear of want, for
|
|||
|
|
the LORD G!D will provide.' (from the Bible)
|
|||
|
|
<br/>
|
|||
|
|
fifteenth day of the first month
|
|||
|
|
of the 105th year
|
|||
|
|
since a nation was
|
|||
|
|
given a worldly comfort by the LORD, it is.
|
|||
|
|
<br/><br/>
|
|||
|
|
<i>from the writer: Praise be to G!D, who daily
|
|||
|
|
loads or lays benefits upon us, even reconciliation
|
|||
|
|
to godliness or G!D: a reconciliation that
|
|||
|
|
no one of the world can give. For as
|
|||
|
|
Scriptures say, human effort is nothing -
|
|||
|
|
futile.
|
|||
|
|
</i>
|
|||
|
|
<br/><br/>
|
|||
|
|
I went to a lecture on Operating-Systems today.
|
|||
|
|
I also went to a talk on what it feels like
|
|||
|
|
to be dealing with 'depression' and recovery
|
|||
|
|
[from it].
|
|||
|
|
|
|||
|
|
</p>
|
|||
|
|
<p>
|
|||
|
|
It is the fourteenth day of the first month
|
|||
|
|
of the 105th year since G!D let Man name a
|
|||
|
|
nation with a name that G!D taught Man
|
|||
|
|
instead of angels (whom G!D
|
|||
|
|
asked what the name was, and who said,
|
|||
|
|
'Yes, G!D, we do not know', and who were
|
|||
|
|
taught the name by Man when G!D commanded Man
|
|||
|
|
to teach them the name)
|
|||
|
|
<br/><br/>
|
|||
|
|
Joanna A, my [']rehabilitation counsellor['], said
|
|||
|
|
yesterday that circumstances that cause stress
|
|||
|
|
can cause a [']relapse[']. She talked about
|
|||
|
|
warning signs of a [']relapse['], and actions to
|
|||
|
|
take during a [']relapse[']. The latter includes
|
|||
|
|
calling her, or checking myself into
|
|||
|
|
[']hospital[']. I find it ridiculous and
|
|||
|
|
counter-intuitive that when stress arises
|
|||
|
|
[or rises] you run away from the stress-causing
|
|||
|
|
factor, rather than find ways to cope
|
|||
|
|
with it, or de-stress, such as getting enough
|
|||
|
|
sleep, or exercising regularly, or
|
|||
|
|
talking to people in support groups or
|
|||
|
|
study groups for undergraduates.
|
|||
|
|
<br/><br/>
|
|||
|
|
<i>Praise be to G!D, who rescues us from
|
|||
|
|
the mouths of the wicked, as a good shepherd
|
|||
|
|
rescues his flocks from the mouths
|
|||
|
|
of shepherds that eat mutton (or lamb
|
|||
|
|
chops) and the fattest portions
|
|||
|
|
of fattened calves, and dress themselves
|
|||
|
|
in wool, instead of feeding or tending or caring
|
|||
|
|
to flocks. Oh, G!D says, too, that He will
|
|||
|
|
ask an account of those shepherds, or hold
|
|||
|
|
them responsible for what happened, and those
|
|||
|
|
shepherds will not eat again. He will judge
|
|||
|
|
between the fat sheep and the scrawny sheep,
|
|||
|
|
G!D says. And this is in Scripture. G!D says
|
|||
|
|
He will care for His flocks Himself, and watch
|
|||
|
|
over them. And G!D is the Most Faithful
|
|||
|
|
to promises He makes. Thank you, Daddy :-)
|
|||
|
|
</i>
|
|||
|
|
<br/><br/>
|
|||
|
|
How can I fight back at [']schizophrenia[']?
|
|||
|
|
This is in contrast to improving the quality
|
|||
|
|
of life while coping with [']schizophrenia[']
|
|||
|
|
|
|||
|
|
<br><br/>
|
|||
|
|
<i>from the writer: Ha-ha-ha (laughing).
|
|||
|
|
There is a card that has the name of
|
|||
|
|
'Schizophrenia' in the Tarot card deck.
|
|||
|
|
And G!D hath brought me to a person who
|
|||
|
|
had a Tarot card deck, and G!D hath brought
|
|||
|
|
me to draw the 'Schizophrenia' card with
|
|||
|
|
His will, which is sovereign (over all),
|
|||
|
|
for who is better at planning than He?
|
|||
|
|
So, out of curiosity, what does so-called
|
|||
|
|
knowledge of so-called schizophrenia
|
|||
|
|
have to do with godliness? Does not the Bible
|
|||
|
|
have on record, 'Turn away from godless
|
|||
|
|
chatter, and those who have opposing ideas
|
|||
|
|
with their so-called knowledge, or
|
|||
|
|
false knowledge?' For who knows more than G!D?
|
|||
|
|
'Who among you can tell what will happen
|
|||
|
|
tomorrow? Come, step forward, let us gather
|
|||
|
|
and argue the case. Gather you your fortune-
|
|||
|
|
tellers and diviners.' (from Scriptures).
|
|||
|
|
</i>
|
|||
|
|
<br/><br/>
|
|||
|
|
|
|||
|
|
[How can I fight back at [']schizophrenia[']?
|
|||
|
|
This is in contrast to improving the quality
|
|||
|
|
of life while coping with [']schizophrenia[']]
|
|||
|
|
The former is pro-active, while the latter
|
|||
|
|
has a passive and sad quality to it, as if it is
|
|||
|
|
a declaration that the battle is over.
|
|||
|
|
<br/><br/>
|
|||
|
|
What do we, those of us with 'schizophrenia',
|
|||
|
|
come
|
|||
|
|
in, in this battle? Where do I come in?
|
|||
|
|
Oh, Father, help us to be more like Jesus,
|
|||
|
|
who is always available to the marginalised
|
|||
|
|
in society, and who does not seek praise: Lord,
|
|||
|
|
you said, 'My Father is greater than I'. You are
|
|||
|
|
humble, Lord. Draw me closer to you, Lord
|
|||
|
|
Jesus Christ. Through Jesus Christ[,] amen.
|
|||
|
|
<br/><br/>
|
|||
|
|
<i>from the writer: I cried out to Jehovah,
|
|||
|
|
the blessed Father who rules the Universe,
|
|||
|
|
and whose name is hallowed, and He heard me
|
|||
|
|
and listened. Even me, a wicked, ungrateful
|
|||
|
|
thievess and a prostitute with a lowly heart,
|
|||
|
|
and poor spirit - a worm! - even me.
|
|||
|
|
The song 'Amazing grace' comes to mind:
|
|||
|
|
Amazing grace / How sweet the sound / that saved
|
|||
|
|
a wretch like me / I once was lost /
|
|||
|
|
But now am found / [da-da-da-da-da]. Sing like
|
|||
|
|
never before, o my soul /
|
|||
|
|
praise His holy name.<br/>
|
|||
|
|
G!D hath no begotten son. And G!D hath no
|
|||
|
|
beings attached. Abraham laid the foundation
|
|||
|
|
of the house when he cried out to G!D: 'Our
|
|||
|
|
Lord! Save
|
|||
|
|
me and my descendants from idol worshippers!' (from
|
|||
|
|
the Quran) <br/>
|
|||
|
|
Praise be to G!D, who brings every kind
|
|||
|
|
of fruit in boundless measure: houses I did
|
|||
|
|
not build, fruits that I did not sow seeds of.
|
|||
|
|
Wow.
|
|||
|
|
</i>
|
|||
|
|
<br/><br/>
|
|||
|
|
Someone else, who is wiser than myself,
|
|||
|
|
said that we need to pray as if it depends on G!D,
|
|||
|
|
and work as if it depends on us.
|
|||
|
|
<br/><br/>
|
|||
|
|
Go home, my people,
|
|||
|
|
and lock your doors!
|
|||
|
|
Hide yourselves for a little while
|
|||
|
|
until the Lord’s anger has passed.
|
|||
|
|
Look! The Lord is coming from heaven
|
|||
|
|
to punish the people of the earth for their sins.
|
|||
|
|
The earth will no longer hide those who have been killed.
|
|||
|
|
They will be brought out for all to see.
|
|||
|
|
<a href="https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Isaiah+26%3A20-21&version=NLT">
|
|||
|
|
(Isaiah 26:20-21, New Living Translation)
|
|||
|
|
</a>
|
|||
|
|
</p>
|
|||
|
|
<p>
|
|||
|
|
It is the thirteenth day of the first month
|
|||
|
|
of the 105th year since a nation's prayer was heard
|
|||
|
|
by the LORD, who heard it, and answered it.
|
|||
|
|
<br/><br/>
|
|||
|
|
I went to a family therapist today. Christopher
|
|||
|
|
L was good at putting my [']father['] into a
|
|||
|
|
positive, compassionate, [and] knowledgable
|
|||
|
|
light. I was surprised that my father
|
|||
|
|
was aware of some of the dynamic[s] between
|
|||
|
|
my [']siblings['] and myself. <br/><br/>
|
|||
|
|
I feel the pressure to make every pocket of
|
|||
|
|
time count. It is as if I'm on a giant rolling
|
|||
|
|
ball, running to keep my balance. It's exciting
|
|||
|
|
to me, at this point, when the semester begins.
|
|||
|
|
</p>
|
|||
|
|
<p>
|
|||
|
|
It is an hour that G!D knows, and I do not know.
|
|||
|
|
Yes, G!D knows, and I do not know.
|
|||
|
|
</p>
|
|||
|
|
<p>
|
|||
|
|
Dear Diary,
|
|||
|
|
How are you? May peace be with you, in the name
|
|||
|
|
of the Lord, Christ Jesus. <br/>
|
|||
|
|
<br/>
|
|||
|
|
</p>
|
|||
|
|
<p>
|
|||
|
|
<i>from the writer: "They say to themselves:
|
|||
|
|
'Shall I do a detestable thing, and worship
|
|||
|
|
a block of wood (or glass or
|
|||
|
|
plastic or metal which may
|
|||
|
|
or may not
|
|||
|
|
happen to be burning my eyes)?'" (from Scriptures)
|
|||
|
|
</i>
|
|||
|
|
</p>
|
|||
|
|
<p>
|
|||
|
|
It is raining as I write to you: The Almighty
|
|||
|
|
releases water from the sky and how wonderful it
|
|||
|
|
is to not know when it will
|
|||
|
|
cease!
|
|||
|
|
|
|||
|
|
</p>
|
|||
|
|
<p>
|
|||
|
|
When will I run out of things to say to you, Diary?
|
|||
|
|
I do not know when G!d wil take me
|
|||
|
|
to meet Christ Jesus [who died on a tree]
|
|||
|
|
in Heaven; I smile.
|
|||
|
|
</p>
|
|||
|
|
<p>
|
|||
|
|
A splotch of co-lour / <br/><br/>
|
|||
|
|
Al-mighty brush on canvas / <br/><br/>
|
|||
|
|
I am His wit-ness
|
|||
|
|
</p>
|
|||
|
|
<p><strike>Do you know of the yoke
|
|||
|
|
that</strike></p>
|
|||
|
|
<p>
|
|||
|
|
Have you heard of the yoke which the apostles
|
|||
|
|
issued at Jerusalem - Paul, Peter and Barnabas?
|
|||
|
|
The rules are as follows: (there are three)
|
|||
|
|
<ol>
|
|||
|
|
<li>Do not eat b;ood
|
|||
|
|
</li>
|
|||
|
|
<li>Do not the meat
|
|||
|
|
of strangled animals
|
|||
|
|
or food offered to idols (this
|
|||
|
|
is unclean food)
|
|||
|
|
</li>
|
|||
|
|
<li>Do not take a <strike>
|
|||
|
|
prohited</strike>hand
|
|||
|
|
of someone else, figuratively,
|
|||
|
|
in a prohibited marriage
|
|||
|
|
</li>
|
|||
|
|
</ol>
|
|||
|
|
</p>
|
|||
|
|
<p>
|
|||
|
|
<i>From the writer: G!D is telling me
|
|||
|
|
'hold fast to the rope that G!D extends
|
|||
|
|
to you, remembering with
|
|||
|
|
gratitude how you were on the brink
|
|||
|
|
of Fire, and how G!D rescued you
|
|||
|
|
from it, and how ye were enemies
|
|||
|
|
whose hearts G!D hath turned to
|
|||
|
|
Him, and so made you kin: brethren:
|
|||
|
|
brothers and sisters: family.'
|
|||
|
|
</i>
|
|||
|
|
</p>
|
|||
|
|
<p>
|
|||
|
|
How did you feel about that?
|
|||
|
|
</p>
|
|||
|
|
<p>When the community heard
|
|||
|
|
about that from the apostles,
|
|||
|
|
the people were encouraged and delighted,
|
|||
|
|
for they were on the brink of
|
|||
|
|
circumcision!
|
|||
|
|
</p>
|
|||
|
|
<p>
|
|||
|
|
The yellow bird flew / <br/>
|
|||
|
|
past as I rolled and slid /<br/>
|
|||
|
|
the gar-den out-side
|
|||
|
|
|
|||
|
|
</p>
|
|||
|
|
<p>
|
|||
|
|
Ta, (until next time) Diary!
|
|||
|
|
</p>
|
|||
|
|
<p>
|
|||
|
|
Unknown mark
|
|||
|
|
</p>
|
|||
|
|
<p>
|
|||
|
|
It is the thirtieth day of the tenth month of the 105th year since aliens
|
|||
|
|
were freed from oppression in a land that produces green grapes, with the help
|
|||
|
|
of G!D, who reminds these aliens not to oppress other aliens among them, since
|
|||
|
|
they know what it is like to be oppressed, in the land that produces green grapes,
|
|||
|
|
themselves.
|
|||
|
|
</p>
|
|||
|
|
<p>
|
|||
|
|
Dead tree,
|
|||
|
|
</p>
|
|||
|
|
<p><i>
|
|||
|
|
from the writer: 'When they say, prophet, "Give us a sign!" say this, O prophet, "
|
|||
|
|
the signs are for G!D, who is Lord of lords,
|
|||
|
|
Ruler of the Universe, the Almighty One,
|
|||
|
|
to reveal to those whom He chooses. And G!D reveals the Unseen in stages.' (from Scriptures
|
|||
|
|
that some call 'the Quran'). And G!D is the All-knowing, All-seeing
|
|||
|
|
and All-hearing, who knows the hearts and minds of men.. women... people
|
|||
|
|
who may or may not have a spiritual life in them, according to the will
|
|||
|
|
of G!D.
|
|||
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</i>
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</p>
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<p>Dead tree, how old were you when you died? [what's your name?]
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Do [Oh] you have children? who were your parents? Who killed you?
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Or was it a natural death?
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</p>
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<p>Very little makes sense in my world, dead tree.
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</p>
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<p>Some part of me is thinking [or thinkin' or think'n]
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what to do with your killer, if you were killed. Another part of
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me accepts that this small mind is unable to understand everything
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everything about you and your death.
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</p>
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<p>
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I'm sighing. If people do kill trees, why
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do they do it? And how can they be stopped from
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doing so?
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</p>
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<p>My Zen teacher [who is practising the Sanbo tradition of
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the Zen traditions, which may (or may not)
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have a tradition that is unknown to me, (why
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do I say that?
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I am not a man of great wisdom. How can I know
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whether there is a tradition that is being
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practised or not, or is Zen or not?)
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that include the Soto tradition and the Rinzai tradition.
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And G!D knows what is Zen, and I do not know. Yes,
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G!D knows, and I do not know.
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</p>
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<p><i>from the writer: 'Interestingly enough,
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it is a known saying among those who are related or
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associated to Zen, that the student that is just
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as bright as the teacher can pass down, or impart,
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fifty percent (that is, half of a whole thing. half
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of a thing that is whole
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) of what
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the teacher teaches. The student has to be brighter
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than the teacher, for what the teacher is passing down
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through the student to be passed down in full.' (laughing.
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huk-huk-huk-hur-herk) <br/>
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Jesus (who called himself the Son of Man) said, 'Truly,
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truly, I tell you, those who believe in Me shall
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do the same works as I, and even those greater than
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these.' :-)
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(as has been recorded in Scriptures)
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</i>
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</p>
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<p>My [']Zen['] [']teacher['] would tell me to count my breath.
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If I have time for these thoughts, I'm not spending all I have
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on counting my breath, according to him.
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</p>
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<p><i>
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from the writer: "As it is written, in Scriptures: 'Men love
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to be called 'teacher', 'Rabbi', 'Leader', 'Instructor', 'sensei',
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'Pastor', and so on and so forth, but- (greeted in market-places,
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they love to be, too. And given the best seats in public, love they.
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And honourable places in synagogues or places where hierarchy or
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a so-called 'chain of command' or an authority or power
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distribution is obvious. Or just to have their 'name' displayed before the world,
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they love. Or ranking. Or display of their so-called 'level of power' or
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'power level' or place among rank and file.) But, you: do not desire
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to be called 'Rabbi', 'Instructor', 'Alpha' or 'Omega' or so on and so
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forth, because you have only one Instructor or Teacher, and that is the
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Christ, the one who has the Name. And all of you are brethren, or
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kin, or brothers and sisters. (And there is only one Alpha, and only
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one Omega.
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Who is He? As it is written in Scriptures, the LORD G!D says, 'I am the First
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and the Last. I am the Alpha and the Omega. Who then is like me? Who was
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with me when I created the Heavens, or separated land from sea, with Wisdom?
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Is there one who is like me? No, I know no other Rock. I know no other Stone.
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I know no other god.' LORD G!D saying, 'Who among you can tell what will happen tomorrow?
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Gather your diviners and tea-leaf-readers and fortune-tellers and palm-readers,
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and let us sit and argue the case.'" </i>
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</p>
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<p>
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I'm idling.
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</p>
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<p>
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This is a tomb-stone for you, dead tree(s): <br/>
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===================== <br/>
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|| In memory of the || <br/>
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|| trees that died || <br/>
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|| so that this book|| <br/>
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|| can be made || v v<br/>
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----------------------------------------
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</p>
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<p>
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It's what people do when their relatives die. It's also
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done to remember the deaths of people who died in war.
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</p>
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<p>
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<i>from the writer: 'Come, please follow Me,' Jesus said to
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a man. 'Ok, I will follow you,' the man said,
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'But first, let me bury my father.'
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Jesus said, 'Let the spiritually dead bury the spiritually
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dead. Your duty is to preach the kingdom of G!D - the kingdom
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of Heaven.'
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</i>
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</p>
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<p>
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'Tis the ninth day of the eleventh month of the 2016th year since
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people thought an image - an image that they have of a messenger of G!D -
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died in the way they think death happens.
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</p>
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<p>
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|
|
Are you desiring freedom from dogma? [Mister] Jobs said in his
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|
|
address to graduates of [a certain] university that dogma is 'the
|
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|
|
result of other people's thinking.' [Mister] Kodo Suzuki said,
|
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|
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'people are so determined to be stupid in groups that they
|
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formed clubs, and charged membership fees'.
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</p>
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|
<p>Of course, there is always
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|
|
room for doubt as to whether the above
|
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|
|
persons really said the things that I claim they did.
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|
|
</p>
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<p>
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|
|
<strike>Some</strike> guy came up with an idea for a social network,
|
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|
|
and decided how it was run. He made the rules, and tied his social
|
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|
|
network to <strike>some</strike> ideals. And people joined his network.
|
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|
|
<strike>some</strike> people even helped him to improve it. [paragraph break]
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|
|
Is following other people's preferences what you want to do
|
|||
|
|
with your <strike>sack of flesh</strike> life? [paragraph break] Aren't
|
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|
|
the creators of popular web-sites doing what that person did? One person
|
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|
|
creates the rules, and others follow him[,] and [obey or otherwise
|
|||
|
|
keep] his rules. Would people be clever enough to ask what his web-site and
|
|||
|
|
rules are good for? [paragraph break] [Mister] Suzuki asked, 'What is dancing
|
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|
|
around good for? What is gambling good for? It's all good for
|
|||
|
|
nothing. That's why nothing is as sensible as sitting in zazen [which is
|
|||
|
|
good for nothing].' [paragraph break]
|
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|
|
</p>
|
|||
|
|
<p><i>He (The Son of Man) said, 'I am the Way, the Truth, amd the Life.'
|
|||
|
|
</i>
|
|||
|
|
</p>
|
|||
|
|
<p><i>Indifference is the opposite of love, so goes a saying that appeared in my life.
|
|||
|
|
</i>
|
|||
|
|
</p>
|
|||
|
|
<p>([Mister] Suzuki calls some people stupid for doing stupid
|
|||
|
|
things in a group. And yet he says that one of applications of practice
|
|||
|
|
to daily life is parental mind.
|
|||
|
|
</p>
|
|||
|
|
<p>My [']sister['] said [in a hypothetical situation that
|
|||
|
|
may or may not smell of emotional abuse through neglect
|
|||
|
|
or indifference on the part of the care-givers] that
|
|||
|
|
babies eat feces [partly] because they don't know that it's not
|
|||
|
|
food.
|
|||
|
|
</p>
|
|||
|
|
<p>A parent - what would a parent do? A parent wouldn't join the baby in eating
|
|||
|
|
feces. A parent might stop the baby.
|
|||
|
|
</p>
|
|||
|
|
<p><i>from the writer: "Jesus said: 'Which one among you,
|
|||
|
|
if your son comes to you, and asks you for a bread-morsel,
|
|||
|
|
or bread, would give him... her... them... a deadly dose
|
|||
|
|
of poison from the deadliest snake that you can find?
|
|||
|
|
Or, who among you would give your sons a stone, if they
|
|||
|
|
ask you for water? If, then, you, who are evil, know
|
|||
|
|
how to do good to your son, then what more, your Father -
|
|||
|
|
who is in Heaven, and rules the Universe - who is good?
|
|||
|
|
And his name is hallowed. And He is blessed.'"
|
|||
|
|
</i>
|
|||
|
|
</p>
|
|||
|
|
<p>It's increasingly becoming clear to me that zazen cannot
|
|||
|
|
be not good for nothing.
|
|||
|
|
</p>
|
|||
|
|
<p>Zazen that is good for nothing may be the most parental
|
|||
|
|
thing to pass on to suffering people. Of course you suffer
|
|||
|
|
if you eat feces, right?
|
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|
|
</p>
|
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|
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