Thank you, Fear of Isaac, who cherishes and sustains
Praise be to G!D, and glory be to Him. Peace be upon G!D-fearing men and women and people on Earth
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							| @ -544,6 +544,106 @@ life]. | ||||
|   <a href="http://biblehub.com/bsb/james/3.htm"> | ||||
|     (James 3:1-2) | ||||
|     </a> | ||||
| </p> | ||||
| <p> | ||||
|   'Which is a more difficult creation? You or the Heavens?' (from the Quran) | ||||
|   <br/><br/> | ||||
|   Praise be to the Most Merciful One, who is Oft-forgiving, and  | ||||
|   the Accepting of repentance, and Compassionate <br/><br/> | ||||
|   It is the eleventh day of the second month of the 105th year | ||||
|   since Man built a city with G!D's help and provisions | ||||
|   <br/> | ||||
|   I went to a gathering of people today, | ||||
|   where people talked about hearing voices, | ||||
|   and their experiences. J, whom I met at the  | ||||
|   meet-up, said that the people | ||||
|   were sharing personal experiences, | ||||
|   not giving advice, | ||||
|   and that was a plus. <br/><br/> | ||||
|   A [']Japanese woman['] talked about her | ||||
|   experience of sexual abuse by her father, | ||||
|   and her perspective on it: that it was  | ||||
|   a dark side of her life which she accepted | ||||
|   as a whole, together with the 'light'. | ||||
|   <br/><br/> | ||||
|   <i>Writer's note: she also shared that her marriage | ||||
|     had... problems. Well, G!D knows truth, and I do not | ||||
|     claim to be G!D | ||||
|   </i> | ||||
|   <br/><br/> | ||||
|   I was surprised to discover that her story resonated with me. What  | ||||
|   happened sexually [or spiritually] between my [']father['] and I, | ||||
|   when I was a [younger] child? If something did happen, where is my  | ||||
|   focus - is it on blaming my [']father['], or on reflecting on | ||||
|   what is inside me<strike>,</strike> that is causing such an | ||||
|   incident to be mirrored in the outside reality? | ||||
|   <br/><br/> | ||||
|   My body and feelings seem to remember, even though I do not. | ||||
|   <br/><br/> | ||||
|   I want the truth. Could it be that I could not bear it now? | ||||
|   <br/><br/> | ||||
|   I feel discarded, like I was a dirty piece or towel. I feel | ||||
|   jealous that my [']father['] is spending time with my [']brother[']. | ||||
|   <br/><br/> | ||||
|   <i>from the writer: Jesus said, 'You are the salt of the earth. But if salt | ||||
|     loses its saltiness, who can make it salty again? It is no | ||||
|     longer good for anything, except to be thrown away, or trampled upon. | ||||
|   <br/><br/> | ||||
|   Jesus (who called himself the Son of Man) said, 'I am the Life, the Truth | ||||
|   and the Way.' | ||||
|   <br/><br/> | ||||
|   Jesus said to a man, 'Come, please follow me.' | ||||
|     </i> | ||||
|   I remember that these feelings  | ||||
|   <br/><br/><i>Jesus said, 'Can a blind man lead another blind man? Would | ||||
|   they not soon fall into a ditch?' | ||||
|   </i> | ||||
|   <br/><br/> | ||||
|   I remember that these feelings are a shadow of a concrete event | ||||
|   from my past, and that there is a message or lesson to be learnt, | ||||
|   that is beneath these feelings. | ||||
|   <br/><br/> | ||||
|   Oh, Father G!D, Abba, lift these feelings so that I can learn | ||||
|   and <strike>learn</strike> and hear and listen! In the name of  | ||||
|   Christ Jesus, I ask this. <br/><br/> | ||||
|   How do I view my [']father[']? What aspects of him do I not like, | ||||
|   and what do those reflect of myself? What I dislike about | ||||
|   him can be found within me. He was ignorant. He is unsensitive, | ||||
|   cowardly, indecisive, spineless, dull, quick-tempered, slow, | ||||
|   boring and controlling. What does that say about me? | ||||
|   <br/><br/> | ||||
|   <i>from the writer: Jesus, the Anointed One, died to reconcile  | ||||
|     many to G!D, in one eternal sacrifice. One sacrifice for | ||||
|     all eternity, in other words. (and it is divine in nature, | ||||
|     a sacrifice the world cannot give.)<br/><br/> | ||||
|     As Scriptures say, 'All kinds of animals, birds, reptiles, and creatures | ||||
|     of the sea are being tamed and have been tamed by man, but no man can | ||||
|     tame the tongue. It is an unruly evil, full of deadly poison.  | ||||
|     With the tongue we bless our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men,  | ||||
|     who have been made in God’s likeness.  | ||||
|     Out of the same mouth come blessing and cursing.  | ||||
|     My brothers, this should not be!  | ||||
|     Can both fresh water and bitter water flow from the same spring?  | ||||
|     My brothers, can a fig tree grow olives, or a grapevine bear figs? | ||||
|     Neither can a salt spring produce fresh water. [on the Wisdom from Above] | ||||
|     Who is wise and understanding among you? | ||||
|     Let him show it by his good conduct, by deeds done in the humility | ||||
|     that comes from wisdom. But if you have bitter jealousy  | ||||
|     and selfish ambition in your hearts,  | ||||
|     do not boast in it or deny the truth.  | ||||
|     Such wisdom does not come from above, but is earthly, | ||||
|     unspiritual, demonic. For where jealousy and selfish ambition | ||||
|     exist, there will be disorder and every evil practice. | ||||
|     But the wisdom from above is first of all pure, | ||||
|     then peace[-]able, gentle, accommodating, full of mercy and | ||||
|     good fruit, impartial, and sincere. Peacemakers who sow in  | ||||
|     peace reap the fruit of righteousness. | ||||
|     <a href="http://biblehub.com/bsb/james/3.htm" | ||||
|     (James 3:7-18, BSB) | ||||
|        </a> | ||||
|   </i> | ||||
|   What kind of hurt or trauma or woundedness did I have, in the past,  | ||||
|   that is lying stagnant now? | ||||
| </p> | ||||
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