Don't leave me ok, Daddy
You said
'Call to G!D, and G!D will
show you great
and mighty things
that you do not know,
and I do not know'
Jehovah
I need Your help
on the behalf of
the Anointed One
the one whom G!D sent
I need Your help
And why is that
because G!D knows how to
help this perverse generation
an'
I do not know
Yes
G!D knows
and I do not know
For I would not, brethren, that ye should be ignorant of this mystery, lest ye should be wise in your own conceits; that blindness in part is happened to Israel, until the fulness of the Gentiles be come in.
(Romans 11:25)
https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Romans+11%3A25&version=KJV
So, wo-
(feeling tired)
oh- yes, toxic people around me,
oh- feeling better, much better, Papa in Heaven,
great, energising or re-energising, and marvellous
are Your deeds, Almighty One.
Sang song of Moses, who is servant of G!D,
and of the Lamb.
Anna, a very old woman,
a señorita
(a saying from the Chinese language: '
the old ginger is the spicy ginger, the ginger
that has sufficient kick to taste-buds'
ha-ha-ha-ha (laughing))
señorita, señor, senile, derived from the word
(Latin maybe) 'sen', which means 'old'. related
note, this is, since G!D has given me such an
argument - of course, this is a supposition,
a claim, which may or may not be true - false knowledge,
as valid an argument nonetheless as the argument that
follows: 'the moon is blue'
there is book titled 'everything is an argument' if you
are interested, but beginning godless chatter- so-
Anna, señorita, seventy-eight years
and eighty-seven days old, widowed, who did
nothing except fasting and praying to G!D, and praising
G!D of course, in temple, took the new-born
(the Anointed One, that is) into her arms, with
the permission of those were holding him,
and thanked G!D, and sang praises to G!D.
And returned the Anointed One, new-born,
to the arms of those who had held him.
And Joseph (the man) and Mary, mother of
the Anointed One, who had conceived with help of
G!D, and help of no man, returned with the Anointed
One to their home-town.
'Are we to continue
in our transgressions
or past sins
or wrong-doings
against G!D -
that is, are we
do things that
G!D detests -
are we to continue
in ways dis-pleasing
to G!D so that
grace
or forgiveness may
abound?
Is it not written
in Scriptures the following
words: '
I am afraid that when I come
to you my god will humble
me before you, and I will
be grieved to see that
many of you
have not repented of
(or dissociated yourselves from)
your past
sins
(or, wrong-doings
which you know,
and which you have received
pardon for, through
the one and only
eternal
sacrifice
of our Teacher and Lord,
Jesus Christ, (whom I am not above),
wrong-doings, oh, like what? Such as:
- idol worship. taking
a being before G!D, who has
no beings attached, for worship.
Golden statues of a sitting figure,
bowls of ceramic,
plastic blocks that burn eyes,
piles of flesh,
bags of bones
sacks of intestines
- lustful pursuit for things
of the world, ah, lustful
indulgences of desires
for things that are of the world
(is it not written in Scriptures
that everything of the world,
together with the world, is passing away)
(I feel a nasty feeling.
I am of course hated by many,
for they are of the world,
and G!D sent one who chose me
out of the world,
for that reason they hate me.
Putting psychological perspectives
aside
it might be better for you
to think I am an extra-terrestrial,
which is what some call what-they-call,
more accurate and better for you
to regard me as an E.T.
using words that are suitable for
your consumption
in a language that you know.
And you may begin
o- not asking for sympathy,
the reason why they hate me.)
- sexual matters that-
ah- I feel as if I ought to say
a few G!D-fearing words:
too many people
have secrets
and shame that they
carry
and it would be no surprise
that they inflict wounds on
others' well-being, sexually
or other-wise, through their
own unhealed emotions
or experiences. Suffice to say, (or not;
I'm concerned what about to say might
not be sufficient to please G!D in fear of
G!D. Still, trying)
quoting from a book from
Señorita Clarissa (who is not above
G!D, of course) those who regard
changes in the body
given to Man (or woman)
as evil (G!D knows what evil
is and I
do not know)
(continue to quote)
they are terribly confused
about G!D-given bodies,
confused about body, they are.'
So, cutting or mutilation of vaginas,
nsistence on so-called pure behaviour,
isolation of menstruating women,
periods, that is,
ways that teach people to feel
shame about what feels good -
masturbating, even -
unnecessary guilt-inflicting -
well, our Teacher and Lord has this to say:
'You say to your brother, your
friend, your menstruating stranger:
'Here, friend, stranger, let me,
as awkward as this may be for you,
let me take the pin out of your eye!
You hypocrite! Take the log
out of your own eye first!
Then you can see clearly
to help your friend, your menstruating
stranger (that is, having menses),
the one whom you call brother, bro,
abang, adik, sister!'
That's our Lord and Teacher for you,
who of course, was hated by the world,
and died for you and me and those
who are of the world. I suppose
an admission of my own faults
or wrong-doings is in order.
I'm even hastening to count myself
among the wicked and ungrateful;
it is written in words that have
breath of G!D in them:
'G!D is kind to the wicked and
ungrateful'
(of course, that does
not mean
that we- are we
to continue to wicked
and ungrateful ways,
now that we have pardon
from G!D Most High - a divine
pardon that the world does not give -
so that wrong-doers may receive
yet more pardon from above?
Certainly, that ought not to be the case,
brethren who are in the same family
as I.
So, yes, I do not want to continue
in my older sins.
How-ever shameful they may seem,
it may be healing to you and to me,
to confess them to each other,
in public or in private, and to pray
for each other; to enjoin
what is pleasing to G!D; and to
forbid what is wrong, or detestable
to G!D who loves justice
and detests wickedness
(surely o, you realise, perhaps,
for I surely realise how heinous
my acts were in the sight of
the All-knowing
All-hearing
and All-seeing One
and yet He pardoned me!
O, thank u thank u thank u thank u
thank You, O Compassionate
and Most Merciful One,
Lord of lords,
King of kings,
to whom all will come to worship,
for Your righteous acts are revealed
And who will not fear You?
For You are the only holy one:
You who was
You who is,
the Everlasting G!D
who does awe-inspiring
(awe-some)
deeds in just and true ways
Ah- confessions, confessions.
Have I visited sex workers,
or so-called street-walkers? Yes.
Paid money to have their company?
Yes.
Have I stolen what I have stolen? Yes.
Have I delighted in my biases,
(as socially conditioned as they may be,
for that is no excuse) against people
who look different from me:
have I delighted in calling them
names, being nasty to them generally,
(oh, not intending to play a victim
of circumstances. I knew what I was doing,
social conditioning or not. I wanted
to have- delight- or, it seemed
at that time,
doing (oh, how horrible, in
hindsight, how horrible a thing
to do to others, (oh) yes, for Man
is said to be made in the likeness of G!D)
now, thinking "I am horrible person"
"a monster"
now, a visit to a professional counsellor some
time ago, she asked me when I said
'I am such a horrible person"
she asked me
"why would you say that?"
Oh, it was simply
the best I could do at that time
I wanted to fit in
People around me
they were cool, to me, at least
and I wanted to do everything
that they did,
(imitation is the sincerest form
of flattery, ainnit, but that beside the point)
and well, turns out
I found a way to imitate them
and that happened at a restaurant ('fast
food', might be familiar to you; not gonna
advertise, of course, so no identifying name
of restaurant)
ya, I called them what-ever those whom I deemed 'cool'
at that time called them. Well, it is the name of their
race spelt backwards. They- ah- ha-ha-ha (laughing)
funny
how things turn out
'we of the Spirit of G!D do things that seem
foolish in the eyes of the world, and those who
are of the world' so it says in Scripture.
Well, wha- why am I laughing? To explain,
I don't care whether you laugh or not, it's still
funny to think about it - they- 'cool' people
thought they were foolish. So I had the audacity
to say whatever I wanted to them- those who were
perceived to be "foolish". Now I find myself
on the receiving end of being called "foolish"
(hah-hah-hah_
almost crying, tears coming to eyes (it's so funny)
not to say I don't wanna be called foolish now.
I do not mind (being called foolish, that is).
An honour, it is becoming, to be called foolish.
Yes, a great fool (big fool) I am.
ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha
if you're interested, G!D gave me guidance
to not lose sense of humour, or brought me
to a person who left a message that said to 'learn
from nature; do not lose sense of humor ever; and
the image is of the mushroom that although
soft and fragile, breaks through concrete that is hard
and tough and rough to rub against or touch. Perseverance,
maybe, to put it in a word, or in two words,
patient endurance. One word: persistence: N' another word:
longsuffering. 'All of which you know I have gone
through,' Paul writes in letter about his persecutions
and ill-treatments. Yes, and you know through
pe- poetry- web-site, persecutions and seemingly
unfair or ill-treatment that I have endured.
Why? We of the Spirit of G!D walk in each
others' shoes along the same path. Gladly I boast
about all these; to build you up, this is for; for through
the Christ, for whose sake I boast happily and joyously,
as much as this makes me a fool - you- you have made
me to be like a fool, boasting like this - oh, I ought
to be receiving commendations from many
of you, even though
I am nothing at all, and do not count myself
among "ubermensch' or the most eminent apostles
or so-called 'super-men' or 'incredibles' or 'proletariat'
or 'pop stars', what-have-you. For I am strong
when I am weak. Delighting in weakness gladly
for the sake of the Christ, whom I am not above,
gladly boasting about thorn in flesh.
Voice in head that says 'You're lousy'
'what you're writing is boring'
(ha-ha-ha-ha)
lovely voices, they are.
'your voice is sweet; and your form is lovely' (from Scriptures,
if you're wondering)
Thank You, Papa, who is Heaven, and unseen
before men, for saving my soul, even though
I am little one and worm
(bawling like baby)
thank You (feeling as if patted or hugged)
Praise ah- how many
ways can I praise You,
O G!D,
For I - I have nothing
to give You
that You did not give me
Thank You,
yes that's a capital 'Y'
And you, plastic block of
chemical units not, (pixels,
some call it)
you, you-
how (...)
how- do-
I don't know what to say-
G!D loves you
in ways you do not know yet,
but you will come to know
after-ward
'Follow your gut feeling,
your intuition,
your heart,' Mister Jay-Oh-Bee-Ess
was saying, oh-
He not above G!D, of course,
'And the thing-
oh, yes, leap of faith, maybe,
something like shot in the dark,
but not quite,
the thing about it-
it
gets
better
and better
as you
keep
going
at it'
And I thank G!D
for counting me
among the faithful
or the believers
or the fellowship
(El fellowship)
of those who are of
the Spirit of G!D
And G!D
reveals the unseen
in stages
Does He not cause
a seed to grow into
a tree in
stages
easy enough
o
for the Almighty
to cause a seed to be
a tree
in an instant (so fast
that mind of Man
is not able to comprehend)
yet He does it in stages
Mind of G!D
above mind of Man
Beautiful are your deeds,
O Almighty One -
great, marvellous, 'sugoi'
and deserving of superlatives
in every conceivable language
'Ah, that was done well'
Splendid
Wondrous
ah-
sang song
of Moses, who is
servant of G!D
(who? Moses,
who gave food from
Heaven to us not, for
G!D did, 'My Father did',
Jesus saying, 'Not Moses'
Moses who is most humble
man who ever lived, the-
more humble
than anyone else)
sang song of
Moses, who is servant
of G!D, (what honour)
and of the Lamb
(book of Revelations,
o,
if you are interested)
So,
drawing inspiration
from G!D,
and a story that G!D brought me to,
a certain public figure (not to mistaken
for G!D, of course)
said about a certain part of her body
that came to be revered, even,
or distinctive or attractive to some:
'When I was growing up,
or little, (which I still am,
the writer that is, not the public
figure)
Ah, I was teased about [certain
part of body]'
or something like that.
Well,
there a song for that, ain't (?) .
'They call me Mary
They call me her,
they call me sexy,
that's not (my) name,
that's not my name
name- aim - aye - aye
are you calling me darling?'
Well, they call me 'show-off'
a drunkard
asked me if
I was drunk
you know what
Jesus said,
'The baptist John came not eating
not drinking
fasting, taht is,
and they call him a demon-possessed
man.'
'Mister Aye made mistakes
in spelling
they call him untidy'
'The Son of Man
came
not not eating
not not drinking
(that is, eating
and drinking)
and they call him
a drunkard, a glutton'
(obviously to those who have
eyes to see what I am sayin')
to what shall I call this generation?
(ah- song maybe clearer
'haters gonna -
....
hate, hate, hate...
shake it off,
shake it off,
ah-ah ah, ah'
(so happy)
'They are like children
that play a game in a living
layer and call out to
others who pass by:
"we were playing games
with our feet, but you-
you were entertaining
guests in the work layer-
you did not follow the rules
of our game of the feet;
or, they are like children digging
at a sandy pit
calling out to others:
"we were having bites from
ants, but you did not scream
when we were bitten""
those who have ears, let them hear
for this are words
that the Son of Man said
himself
and I am not above the Christ
check Scriptures, if you want
Praise be to G!D who sustains the worlds
Most Merciful and Compassionate One,
the All-knowing, All-hearing
and All-seeing One,
creator of the- everything,
the one and only judge on
the Last Day,
To G!D I commit my spirit and body
and the matters that G!D knows
are on my mind;
my anxieties and thoughts;
try me, O G!D, search me,
and know me, (yes, even me,
a worm, and a little one)
Of course, what am I before G!D
(wow)
of course I done wrong!
Remember me, Jesus, when you
go to your Father!
or when your kind of kingdom
is coming, remember me!
or when
it
is here,
remember me,
a sinner,
a wicked, ungrateful
little one,
a worm
and a prostitute
ignorance and senselessness
I have angered G!D
in ignorance and senselessness
Oh, you fear not, you not fear G!D?
I fear G!D!
Remember, yes, Christ Jesus,
the one whom G!D has sent
to you and me and them,
when your kingdom is here!
said criminal on place
of death.(as written in Bible, which
is name that some have given
Scriptures)
Then Jesus said to that criminal
(and not the other one who had
mocked him, saying, 'Aren't you
son of Most High? Take us down
from our death-place (which may
or may not be a cross, not to mention
a tree) our public death-place at once;
let yourself down while you're at it, too!'
)
('Ah, what boldness they show for the Fire.')
as written in the Quran)
'Truly, truly, I tell you, you be with
me in gardens of bliss. Paradise.
the felicity you- sumthin' good.
' Jesus said.
'The thing about colonialism or colonisation,'
said the author, 'is that it follows a certain
thinking that goes like this: "for me to exist,
you must cease to exist"'
'It should not be this way. There goes
thinking like this: "do this, do that. come here,
do there, then you will have Heaven-entry.
Heaven is not where you are at. Heaven
is where I am at. The things I do, the things
I say, all these are Heaven-entry things, not yours.
Erase your existence at once, follow my ways,
if you do not erase your existence,
I will destroy your ways,
your lives,
your existences,
so that you follow mine.
For my way is the way to Paradise,
Heaven, fully lush and pleasant gardens of bliss.'"
(but as the Quran notes, "There is no compulsion
in religion")
"It ought not to be this way! It should not be like this!
Heaven is for every-one" the author said. (who? name?)
G!D brought me to that author, and he is not above G!D,
and neither am I. He- ah- Quran verse:
'who-ever, then rejects false deities (idols, images of G!D)
hypocrispy of people, false knowledge, and believes
in G!D, who hath no beings attached, has the surest
and firmest hand-hold on religion or what some
call 'ticket to Heaven, Paradise, the supreme happiness
(supreme felicity), gardens of bliss, under which rivers
flow and streams gush, and spouses recline there-in,
delighting each other for the good pleasure of G!D Most
Mighty and High)
the Truth
(which will reveal truths to you and me in the just
and true ways of G!D most high, ways that are
above your ways and my ways)"
That's not to say colonisers are hopeless.
Paul the apostle himself killed people who study
and do what Jesus said. (Of course Paul is not G!D)
(Read Corinthians maybe)
G!D help me pee when time to pee is here.
'There is more hope for the fool or the man
or woman or what-have-you that confesses they
are fools than for the man or woman or
what-have-you (aliens maybe) who say they are wise,
enlightened, clever, smart, in possession of a certain
knowledge, and so on' (as written in Scriptures)
I feel sick. A nasty feeling, I feeling. Kimochi warui, maybe.
Detest I feel.
'I despise all those who cling on to worthless idols
that cannot help them at all' (as written in Scriptures)
ha, that makes me feel better
(letting out sigh, great sigh)
Thank You, Papa in Heaven, who loves
justice, and detests wickedness, I love You so,
You who have no beings attached, and my one
and only Father, and who is unseen before men.
'Those who deny truth (or reject faith) will not help
you return to the faith, if you turn to them. when they
strike you'. (as written in the Quran)
Praise be to G!D, who strengthens faith of believers
with Quran, and lays profitable and beneficial
gifts - good and perfect gifts, they are - every day, on
a daily basis, that is - even divine reconciliation to G!D,
a reconciliation those who are of the world cannot give,
a reconciliation the world does not give.
I love You, Papa. Let not Your spirit away from me.
I'm always so afraid of losing You.
I know no other Rock.
I know no other Stone. (that provides me with every
good gift and every perfect gift)
I know no other god.
G!D is called the Everlasting G!D,
with whom there is no turning of shadow,
no passing away,
no human foible,
no hatred of justice,
no variableness.
So, do not err, brethren. Every good gift
and every perfect gift is from above,
coming down from the Father of all lights,
the blessed Father who is Ruler of the Universe, (and everything in it)
and whose name is hallowed. (somewhere in Scriptures maybe)
Many times the prophets
and their fellows
cried out to G!D
'our Lord! Where are you?'
Verily, verily
(truly, truly)
the mercy
of the LORD G!D
is near!
nearer than you may think
(Scriptures that some call the Quran)
Do not
judge,
you not be judged
(-:
:-)
- Jesus, son of Mary
'love your enemies, then you
be El-Shaddai's son.' - the Anointed One,
our Teacher and Lord, whom I am not above
Blessed art thou,
Father in Heaven,
Ruler of the Universe,
hallowed is thy name,
o, LORD, our Father,
w- you-
you are potter to clay,
and we are clay to potter,
we are all the work
of your hands
on the behalf of the Anointed One
who calls
himself
the Son of Man
Death of Jesus on a tree.
Rich man arrived,
Joseph,
having obtained or found
permission
from Pilate (man of authority
over death-sentence or death-penalty
in his society or space or realm
of influence)
to take body of Jesus
down from death-place.
(incident of crime, maybe
'men in blue' call it)
then wrapped
in white cloth
as comforting as
chocolate or a
furry dog (that is comforting
to pat or stroke)
and created a new tomb
of his (that is, Joseph)
his own making
(what then is Paul
what then is Apollo
what then is Joseph)
women rushed
to bury
body of Jesus
but told to wait
out-side tomb
for three days
for Jesus
said 'temple of G!D
will be destroyed.
Further, I tell you,
in three days, it will
be re-built.'
This was when Pilate asked
Jesus: 'Are you son of G!D?'
He- Jesus- said: 'It is as you say.
Further, I tell you,
in three days,
the temple of G!D will be re-built,
implying that which I tell you
clearly and plainly now:
the temple of G!D will be
completely
smashed
run down
as putty,
dust and ash,
destroyed.'
'Blasphemy!' they cried,
but- that's a story you
can read if you r interested
(or if you are interested)
ha-ha-ha-ha-
and if G!D is willing, of course
. Relatedly,
please compare,
if you will,
to the concept of
'Ouroboros' (or something)
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ouroboros
(there it is, link, that is)
and alchemy
(depends on who you ask,
regarding alchemy)
suffice to say
'reddening' stage come
from 'whitening' stage
which is basically dying
or sending to death.
or, hm, of course G!D
is a better teacher of
ancient ways than I am,
a better alchemist than I, Daddy is,
ah- renunciation-
whitening-
Buddhism-
Al- alchemy-
or at least, alchemical symbols-
ask G!D to help you
to avoid people being limited in
their understanding, the Buddha
said, (for some are having
lack of understanding- especially
in modern society that teaches so-called
'studies' or 'knowledge')
'it is better for me
to say 'I do not understand'
rather than trap them
in the limited thoughts
and ways of their
limited mind, for
some -ah- truly, truly,
'do not be as the dog,
which has no understanding,
or lack of understanding' as written
in Scriptures-
yes, better to say 'I do not understand'
and have no followers.
"
the Buddha said this, (for you,
if you want)
the Buddha said this
when his followers
asked him why
he did not explain
to strangers - who had
asked him questions
on various things that
the Buddha had taught
to his disciples, students,
avid students, clearly
and unambiguosly
or in other words,
with clear communication
'I thought for a while
and decided
to do
what I had decided
and did what I had
decided to do
that is to say
to nobles
around me
:
each and every one
of you
are relating to one
another in a transactional
(instead of an unconditional)
manner'
(from Scriptures)
name of person?
does it matter?
Is it not written in Scriptures:
'what then is Paul? then, what
is Apollo?'
If you must know, to satisfy
or follow through
with gut feeling maybe
'Nehemiah'
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